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I also allow anonymous posting and posting from people who are not on my friendslist but you will have to go thru a little more work to post to my journal. I also screen comments from those not on my F-list.
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The list of some different accounts that you can use for your OpenID is http://openid.net/get/ so if you use flickr, yahoo, blogger, wordpress or aol (just a few of the big ones) you can use a URL from those to sign in to leave me comments (the image below tells you what URL that is).
Yes, I am fairly boring but feel free to comment. I love to meet new people and know who has checked my journal out.

Ok, I wanted to see how this OpenID thing worked. On yahoo you need to enable your OpenID. Sign in and then go into your information area (where you change your password and such there will be a link on the right that says edit/create OpenID and  you will get a URL to use for your OpenID) to do that. it's really not that hard.
I was able to get right on with my aol OpenID URL without having to enable anything.

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OK I have to say the only time I ever watch the superbowl is if the Chicago Bears are in it.

I haven't removed anyone from livejournal so if it did happen. I am sorry. shoot me a message and I'll fix it.

Jeff and Jordan are gonna be on it. Ok I was fans of theirs during big brother
I have to root for Jeff he's a chicago boy

first thing I think?? uum probably "oh crap I gotta get up, I don't want to get up"
when I go to bed "dammit I don't want to go to bed but it's really freakin late"

On tumblr there is a blog about "what's in your bag" so I was finally bored enough to take pics of the crap that is in my purse and my "going out" makeup bag. I generally bring more stuff with me when i go somewhere but I keep that stuff in my ulta tote which I will probably photograph next lol yes I am THAT bored.
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I hope everyone had a wonderful NYE.
I ended up falling asleep before midnight but my friend Alice called me a couple mins til and had me stay on the phone til after the clock struck midnight.
Yesterday just kinda hung out at home. Dad had to work so we had dinner early and then hung out.
My sleep schedule has been all messed up since Christmas day when I fell asleep right after Kev and Gayle left.
With the baby coming and spending the night here tonight I need to be awake with him til he goes to sleep.
But on the plus side with that I've been up at the buttcrack of dawn so i'll not have an issue when he gets up in the morning lol

Kevin is going snowboarding in a couple weeks and Gayle asked me to stay over and help her with Evan and stuff. So I will be over there when he leaves for 8 days. Now that will be interesting lol

well christmas day was very nice... well besides the water that was seeping into the basement.
We battled that until Kevin,Gayle and Evan came over. Then we shut the shop vac off and sat with them to open presents (well only Evan opened anything cus they were all his presents)
Mom made dinner she made turkey and the fixings. Pretty much thanksgiving dinner. I love my moms turkey and stuffing and all that. we hung out and watched it's a wonderful life and enchanted afterwards.
My brother Michael wanted all of us to come to his house for christmas but my other brother and  gayle were like no tradition is to come here cus we hang out and have a good time. I guess they had said that if it was at mike's there would be no hanging out it would pretty much be eating and then leaving so they did NOT want to go there for dinner.
Staying home was better for me anyway since I didn't get to bed til late and I did not want to have to get out of my pajamas to go anywhere.
I also ended up starting lose my voice christmas day.
It was the scratchy throat and you knew something wasn't right.
By the day after christmas my voice wasn't all there and i felt like poop. So that's pretty much where we are now. I didn't do anything all weekend. I stayed home and slept cus I haven't felt great.
I am feeling much better though today. I need to be 100% by saturday cus I am taking Evan for an overnighter. Gayle is going to a bachelorette party and I'm not sure what kev is doing but Gayle suggested I take the kid over night so I said sure. I mean we have the baby monitor and the crib why not.

Had a good time. Went to dinner with my Aunt, Uncle, couple of cousins my Great Aunt and my Mom's cousin. Then we went to my Brother's for dessert. We had a lot of fun. I unfortunately injured myself. I ended up having my foot slip out from under me and I twisted my ankle as I was getting in the car from my aunt's house when we were going to my brothers. We had to stop over there to get dessert that she made. I was carrying the Chocolate Trifle. I did not manage to ruin the dessert. My ankle twisted and I ended up falling on my back with the bowl on me. I fell between the curb and the car and it's been raining here in chicagoland today so the street was wet and there was slushy snow still there so yea that was fun. I got wet my ass was wet my sock on my foot that i didn't twist got wet when my shoe fell off as i fell. Now I am left with a swollen ankle and foot.
We were supposed to be doing dinner at my house tomorrow with my one brother, sister-in-law and nephew coming here and my other brother not coming for dinner at all. On the way home my brother called and said we should go back t his house tomorrow for dinner. Meanwhile we have all the stuff for dinner already (turkey, potatoes, vegetable,rolls) here. My brother said something about my other brother and SIL and neph going to midnight mass tonight so he said something about calling him to tell him about the change.
BUT there is also the monkey wrench of the house getting water since it's been raining. We of course are getting rain in our basement if it continues we won't be able to go by Mike's anyway because we have to bail out our basement. I guess details will be ironing out tomorrow unless Mike was too drunk to remember his idea of us now going there for dinner instead of having Kev and Gayle come over here while they stay home and do their own thing. I just know that I was kinda looking forward to not getting out my pajamas all day tomorrow. I have a feeling even if we do go over there I am still wearing some sort of comfy clothes cus dammit I am in pain and that shall be my excuse.
I looked cute tonight wore some nice new jeans that I love and I need to get another pair and i was wearing cute pumps (the red ones I had gotten to wear at Mike's wedding but didn't wear cus they gave me blisters when i wore them with no nylons or anything) Now they are the heels of death since they tried to kill me when I was just standing there.
OK.... It's now after 3am I was up at 7am this morning and I need to get my ass to bed.
I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas.

Tonight since it's Christmas Eve I am going out to dinner with my mom my aunt and her family maybe my mom's cousin and her mom for dinner. Ever since I was a kid we (my family, mom,dad,my brothers and my grandparents) would always go out to dinner on Christmas Eve. When we were little we would always go to Red Lobster. Now we pick other places but we still go out. For years we'd go to my aunt's house afterward for dessert. Last year and now also this year we are going to my brother's house for dessert.
I think I look forward to christmas eve more than christmas day lol. Christmas day we don't do much we have dinner here at my house but it's nothing fancy. We are having turkey and all the trimmings this year no dressing up it's very low key. My brother, sister-in-law,nephew and their doggies are coming over for christmas.

I tend to start nostalgic then slide into grumpy and depressed. I guess being an adult most of the magic is gone from christmas. I think that now that I have my nephew it might be more fun. He's not even a year old so christmas isn't fun with him yet. I am kinda eager for next year and the year after to enjoy christmas thru him.
I am looking forward to tomorrow though. I see the kids I babysit and get to give them their christmas presents that I bought for them. I am excited to see their reactions. I hope they like what I get them.
It was always fun to see my cousins reactions when I would give them stuff for christmas.

I think my general holiday grumpiness is because these stupid christmas commercials and decorations are up before even halloween by christmas I am sick of it and just want it to be over then you get a week without those jewelry commericals and flower commercials and it starts all over again with stupid valentine's day.
Let me just say when you are single the holidays are even worse.

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I hate the snow and cold. Celebrating on a beach in the sun would be the way to go for me.

only emails? it wouldn't impact it at all. I guess it would depend on which email address you were checking I have a few different emails and most of my emails are to family or friends about regualr stuff now my IMs and posts other places are a bit different

Ok I absolutely LOVE this movie. It's probably my fave Johnny Depp role. I am gonna post a few videos of it

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The Libertine isn't one of Johnny's "pretty" roles but ya gotta love someone who takes chances as an actor.
I've seen this movie a few times now, hard to believe I do NOT own the dvd... I am putting it on my list right now to look for whenever I am out shopping for movies. Hopefully best buy will have it. I threw it on my amazon wishlist not that I get anything really from there but I do kinda use that as my "to get" list.
The reason I bring this movie up is I just watched it again on IFC, it doesn't get shown often but when it is I try to watch it. When I first saw it on demand I think i watched it like 6 times in a weekend.
The movie is about John Wilmot, 2nd Earl of Rochester. He lived in the 17th century. He was a Poet, Playwright, liked to drink and get himself into trouble. He lived life to the fullest and died very young.That's all I am going to really say about the movie cus if you really want to watch it you will. If you do watch it or are a fan let me know cus I don't know many people have actually seen this movie.

Since we got the record player thing I've been playing some records.
Tonight we had Evan over here so we hung out in the computer/spare room and played music.
this pic is of the Alvin and the chipmunks albums. That last one's cover always scared the shit out me as a kid. It doesn't say it's the chipmunks but it is.


and here are my faves I think. Twas The Night Before Christmas and Frosty the Snowman

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I am debating on putting these on cd even though there are some scratches on them. I need to find a good site for albums, and album care. I wonder if there is a secret to make scratches that aren't THAT bad more unnoticeable.
I have to say there are some scratches there are no helping though.

If anyone knows any cool stores that sell vinyl in the chicago area please let me know. Now that I have something to play them on I am on the lookout. I am seriously considering buying The Pirate Movie soundtrack that i've seen on ebay over the years.
I haven't been in Rolling Stones in a long time do they still sell any vinyl??

My mom told me she heard an update on how my Aunt is (not really my Aunt, my mom's best friend but she's like family).
I guess she's got full blown Alzheimers now. She doesn't remember anyone.
I think about her almost every day. Family gatherings aren't the same without her.
We don't even really know where she's at to even go visit her. My Aunt is only in her early 50's. She spent her life pretty much taking care of her mother and keeping her mother out of a retirement home. Now she's in one and will spend the rest of her life there.

Ok today is the anniversary of the Our Lady of the Angels school fire.
it's been 51 years since the fire.
My dad and aunt went to the school at the time of the fire. My Aunt was in the grade the ended up losing a lot of kids. She was actually supposed to have been in one of the classrooms that lost many many children. My grandparents had moved from the neighborhood but then moved back and my aunt wasn't in the room she should have been. She was due to be transferred into that classroom in a week or so. Her best friend Suzie was the worst burned and lived the longest after the fire. Suzie did end up passing away. My aunt has told me about the fire many times, she ended up staying after she got out of the school and witnessed some not so nice things. My dad was a year younger than her and went straight home he's never talked about it but anyone who knows my dad knows he never tells ANY stories about when he was a kid.
I read a book about the fire when i was in 3rd or 4th grade. A classmate (she was a bit older than my aunt) who was burned in the fire wrote a book called The Fire That Will Not Die (her name was Michele McBride in case anyone wants to look up the book it's back in print. I need to get it again I have no idea what happened to the two copies we had here) It's about her experiences as someone who was burned in the fire.
There is also another book called Angels Too Soon there is also a program called chicago stories on WTTW tonight (for those in chicagoland) that talks about the fire it's on one of the digital channels. On Comcast here in chicago it's on at 9pm on channel 243 if you don't have comcast it's on 11.2 (I think that's the from the OLAfire website they sent out an email about it being on.) I haven't been able to get thru the book To Sleep With the Angels it's just too sad but they do talk about the person who could be responsible for the fire. For a long time people blamed the janitor. My aunt has told me about the kid that they think did it. His family moved out of the neighborhood sometime after the fire.
The OLA fire site has pictures and lots of stuff on it. I've even found pictures of my dad and aunt with their classes in the photos and news area in the class photos area. Kinda weird to see my dad that little and in school lol.
i was going to set this post as friends only so it didn't get imported to my facebook but I'm going to let it stay public.

OK I am a social smoker, I smoke when I go out (sometimes) not that I can smoke in bars anymore or anything :(
I think that the government shouldn't be telling people they can't smoke by banning it in most places except your fucking house and your car.
I think that instead of insane high taxes on cigarettes they should tax alcohol just as much since drinking can also kill you. I guess it's more socially acceptable to be fall down puking in your purse drunk than to OMG have one cigarette.
Drinking causes diseases as well as smoking,but I guess that's ok too.
In my opinion if you are going to tax vices why not tax all vices equally. I mean they raise taxes on cigarettes and when people quit or get their cigarettes from different states or whatever and they aren't getting the tax money they expected from it they bitch. Maybe if they raised taxes on booze people would not get so ridiculously fall down idiotic drunk and drive their cars and kill people. It would be too expensive to get that insanely drunk. I think drunk drivers can do a hell of more damage than a pack of cigarettes.
When I smoke I try to be polite about it. I mean I don't think it's my god given right to smoke any time any place unlike some people. If I know people are non smokers I try not to let my smoke go up their nose (well when we were in bars but you can't smoke in bars anymore in Illinois)
If I knew someone really hated smoking and they were in my car I wouldn't smoke just because they were with me.

got a record player/cd/cassette/radio that records to cds I need to dig out all my records. I had some easy to get but the rest are in a closet that my computer desk is in front of. Those will not be easy to get to. Most of the records are or used to be my parents but I now claim them as mine.

Most are from the 60’s and 70’s. i have the beatles white album, the doors first album. The Easy Rider Soundtrack. Jimi Henrix and Otis Redding from the montery pop festivel. Saturday Night Fever soundtrack. I am listening to my Madonna Like a Virgin album right now. Next will be Thriller since these are mine my mom bought them for me when they had come out.I have to say for me being 8 years old when this madonna album came out I took pretty good care of it. hardly any scratches. This won’t be put on cd since it does have scratches and i have the mp3’s of these songs anyway but I am so excited about this player. I need to find our old christmas albums, Right now I only have Barbra Streisand a christmas album out. I know we have a chipmunks christmas and a few other chipmunks records. I have chipmunk punk from back in the day with the chipmunks singing the knack and the cars and i think blondie songs. At least these albums were in easy reach. I had a record player when i got my first stereo but it broke and haven’t had a record player since. These albums were just put in easy reach unlike the others. I have a load of elvis records that were my grandma’s that I got when she died.

oh god I could go on forever about songs I never get tired of hearing. Too many to list right now though they are all mostly older tunes. from the 60's,70's and 80's
One song though I will name is Piece of My Heart by Janis Joplin LOVE IT

Hmm I like most books I've ever read.
Gone With The Wind is a fave of mine. I love the Harry Potter books, the Feast of All Saints by anne rice is a great book

I can't remember most of the bad ones except for and I know I will get crap for this since I just read it last week Twilight. OMG it was freakin horrible. Sorry Folks but it was. I just started new moon but haven't gotten very far due to the twilight-trama.

This is my fave review that i've seen of twilight over on goodreads http://www.goodreads.com/review/show/12639073 I'll post it here also though
( click to read Joe's review )
I have to say there are some GREAT reviews over at goodreads on twilight but Joe's was the best which is why I posted it here

some people got removed from my friends list by accident. I've added ya back
I never removed anyone though so it's an LJ glitch

I did not sleep well last night. I was on the phone til about 1:30am with my friend and then I tossed and turned and I am not sure when exactly I fell asleep but it was late. I heard my mom and my aunt get up to go shopping I think around 4ish. I woke up at 5:45 with a splitting headache and didnt get back to sleep. Woke my cousin Samantha up around 6:30am to start getting ready to leave to go to the mall.
I pretty much shopped for myself today. I started out wanting a netbook so I could use it to play online from wherever (ok mainly my bed cus sometimes I just want to lay in bed and surf and whatever)

I was not getting up mondo early to stand in long lines at places with netbooks as door busters. So I figure I will keep an eye out before christmas and stuff I also need another external HD for my computer and that I need a tad more than a netbook but I will be watching prices for both. I want a new computer so after christmas i am saving for that too not sure if I want a laptop or not. I am on the fence.

What I did end up getting today was 2 pairs of jeans at 40% off a sweater for 40% off I have a sweater but I wanted a longer sweater cus it was really cute and my wool sweater I have can be scratchy sometimes this one is softer.
I got a 2010 Tudors Calendar since I missed out on the 2009 one last year cus I never seemed to find it when I was out.
Sunkissed Glow perfume I've wanted this since spring.
Sex and the city movie, Knocked up movie,Snow White movie since I missed it when it was released a few years ago on dvd, a disney princess 3 pack of movies with Enchanted, The Princess Diaries and The Princess Diaries 2 and I bought the series Life On Mars (the US version)
I was good I didn't buy any makeup I did want to but the last of my cash went to the sweater which of course will get more use than makeup.
My cousin Sam got all kinds of clothes today for work. I helped her pick out a lot of stuff at the limited. She got some really pretty stuff.
She's sleeping now she wants to go home soon so i am staying awake til she leaves, cus I want to at least say goodbye before she heads back to michigan.
Tomorrow is another day of family fun since most everyone was shopping today or at lunch after shoppin'.
Tomorrow is Wing Day. My fave day of the year besides thanksgiving. 120lbs of buffalo wing goodness. This year it's at my Auntie Linda's house. I hope to get pics of everyone. I did take a few pics at thanksgiving but I was so busy doing the girls makeup I barely hung out with everyone. I took a couple pics today of Evan at lunch when we were all at Chili's.
Ok I am pretty much rambling now. I really need to go to sleep. Hopefully soon I can pass out.
I guess it also doesn't help that i've been sick all week. Got sick monday and have had sniffles and stuffiness all damn week. I was feeling better but I am still feeling shitty.

I am queen of shopping last minute (christmas eve baby is the best time the pressure is on). This year is easy though. I am not exchanging with my brothers and my sisters in law. So I am only buying for my nephew mom and dad and maybe my brother's dogs.

well he has diverticultis again. uum yea cus he never changed his diet. i knew that would come back(since that part of his colon had been removed last year during one of the surgeries to fix stuff).
This is aggravating cus this diverticulitis did not have to come back. But my father who knows EVERYTHING *eyeroll* did and probably will not add the fiber he needs to his diet.
 His instructions for today were to eat lightly and avoid greasy foods... guess where we stopped for food on the way home.
Gene and Jude's (for those who don't know it's a place to get hot dogs and french fries) way to go on following doctor's orders, dad.
I guess they removed a few polyps and they are being tested. We should know results in a week or so.
well that's if dad actually tells us these results unlike when they found cancer and it took us what 6 or more months for us to know about that.. yea thanks dad.

ok i love halloween
I am not dressing up but i will be handing out candy. I will also be having the halloween tradition of eating "Witches Brew" for dinner. Yum yum yum it's so good. We've had this every year since as long as I can remember.
I think even my mom had it as a kid it's a simple recipe  but it's YUMMY.

I hope my brother brings the baby over so we can see his costume but who knows.
I really don't have much to say but happy halloween and add the witches brew recipe to the blog

( Witches Brew )

Gonna talk about dad's colonoscopy ( click me )

ok I wrote about my fathers upcoming colonoscopy last week right... and how he needed to do all the stuff the day before the test... well it's the day before the test.
so far he has only taken the six laxative pills he was supposed to start at 7am. he started late at 8:30.
he was supposed to drink 10oz of this stuff at around 10:30am since he started late. well he hasn't as of yet and it's 1:20pm
he is supposed to start the gallon of stuff soon.
supposedly he took the laxative pills and he's started throwing up. well it says on the note thing that if you do puke to call the doctor to let them know.
this is fucking ridiculous. Ok my mom called it on how he was going to be. she was right I was sooo wrong.

Ok I decided i will take pics of this stuff with a date and time stamp. and if mom wants to take them tomorrow with her to the doc I will upload them to walgreens and she can stop there before she comes home from work so she can show the doctor. at least there will be photo proof of what he did not do. I am sick of his bullshit dude..

Ok dad is going for his Colonoscopy next week. (i will be talking about it so I will add a cut if you don't want to read about it)
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actually no I don't.
I could see where it would be amusing. I am friends with an ex on facebook but after how many years of not speaking we are on good terms and can be friends.
I guess it would depend on the relationship and if there has been enough time in the separation to gain closure and heal from the heartbreak.
If you haven't had that it could cause all kinds of drama and pain.

I've also had the relationship with an ex who has pretty much refused to give me the space I wanted from him to even be friends with him. There were too many emotions there and he never left me alone long enough to gain closure and perspective and has hurt me for years (yea I've written about him here on LJ lol). BUT I've never contacted him. He generally finds me and gets in touch with me.

my tv is usually on, it doesn't mean I am watching it but it's always on.
ok I have to say the longest of me continuously watching tv would probably be when I do marathons of tv shows on dvds. I'm usually alone when I do those unless someone wants to watch the crap i am watching lol

Fuck Yeah 1980's

I've been on tumblr a lot lately this is one I started but it's more like a LJ community where you can run it with a few people. check it out. if you want to join tumblr and help with it that would be way awesome.
I am always looking for people to help post 80's stuff.
I thought maybe I'd pimp my new fave tumblr here and share with my friends.
I also added it to my links area on my journal along with my personal tumblr which is mostly a picture blog instead of writing anything personal. This is still where I write my personal stuff.
Too bad nothing has happened lately. Been watching the kids and my newphew a whole bunch.

i am just gonna copy and paste from the email she sent.
if you could help her out that would be really really great.

been thinking about this for a couple days... and I felt maybe if i wrote about it i might feel better??? I dunno.
I guess my aunts mom and uncle are supposed to be getting together to talk about what is going to happen with my grandfather (if you can call someone who's barely bee in my life grandfather but i guess by blood that's what he is)
He currently lives in FLA but last summer they had picked him up and he spent the summer up here being rotated from house to house (ok just a couple houses since not everyone currently has a relationship with him *namely mine and my aunt laura*) this year was the same my one aunt and uncle flew down and picked him up and flew back and he's been here all summer. From what I understand they really don't want him living alone. I mean the man is going blind due to macular degeneration.

Now the question is who will take him. I can tell ya right now my mother won't. I know my auntie laura won't either.
From what I heard there are only a few that i guess have even had this summer. He likes to stay at my one aunt's cus she has little kids and he can play grandpa. (ok still am bitter about that i mean i was a little kid and he didn't want to be MY grandpa so yea thanks gramps i appreciate it)

I am still very bitter about him now being back and being at things. i have not talked to him. He's been at 3 things this summer that I was at. My cousin Helen's graduation party. I walked past him and didn't even say hello. He was at my dad's birthday party and I didn't say anything to him there either. He was at my cousin Jason's wedding and I didn't talk to him there either.
Ok maybe it's a tad childish for me just to not talk to him or even say hello... but I guess I don't because I may open my mouth and say something and be rude to him. So i would rather not say anything rather than start trouble and take the focus away from what we are celebrating. I am not shy about telling people how i feel generally so I guess it is soo much better than starting crap.

I know i have written before about my feelings in this situation but i am sorry i am still bothered by the whole thing.
I just don't understand how someone who had grandchildren could just cut them out of his life like that. I mean my brothers and i and a few cousins (that were around when drama went down) were little kids. why would you not want to see us grow up. I just don't understand what kind of person would do that. ok I don't know HIS side but from what i understand he blames my mother for starting stuff when it was his "wife"(my mom said no one is sure if he and Isabel were ever really married or not so i will use quotes for her) doing things and send letters to my mom and my aunts.
I am curious to read these letters. My mom has them or at least copies of the originals.

It's just hard for me to believe that a man could be so pussy whipped that he would put her over his own children and grandchildren. it's just mind boggling. I mean I have dated men with children. His kids always come first. I would never expect any different. one of my ex's was pushing me to meet his kids and i kept saying no, that since we didn't know where our relationship was going I didn't want to get attached to his kids and vice versa, I thought that it would be unfair to them if something (and well it eventually did happen) but I was glad that I had not met the kids even though I did really want to.

I guess that knowing kinda that he will be up here and will be around and possibly in my life it bothers me.
I dont feel sorry for him that he's all alone in florida. He's made his bed now he has to deal with the consequences of his choices.
ok my other grandpa my dad's dad... he and i don't always get along but ya know if he needed something or whatever I'd be there in a heartbeat for him. Believe me it's not that i hate old people or anything lol cus that is so not the case. I grew up having ONE grandfather. I knew my other grandfather had turned his back on us. when we were kids and after my mom said she was done dealing with him and his "wife" she told us kids if we wanted to see him my dad would take us whenever we wanted to go. We did try that a few times for halloweens and stuff especially since my grandpa lived like 3 blocks away (yes he lived walking distance from me). Those stopped because it was obvious he really didn't want us there.
I guess what bothers me most is the feeling that he didn't care or even make some effort to stay in contact with us. He would come or drop off a gift if he was invited to something but it was never him initiating any kind of contact. No birthday cards or Christmas cards... nothing. I thought well maybe since my birthday is the day after his just maybe this year i'd get a card from him or something a phone call even. I was his first grandchild.. granted at the time of the drama there were not many of us but I always kinda thought that the first was maybe a little more special or something. Now he's got 22 grandkids and he's got 3 great grandkids now. I am not sure he's seen Evan. I asked my brother if he had brought even over to him at my dad's birthday party and my brother was like "no why" I don't even know if my brother has talked to him really. I guess he kinda feels the way i do in some respect.
My other brother i think has talked to my grandpa. But then I was the one who heard about all the stuff going on with him from a young age. I would sit and listen to the adults talk. I was also present at drama that had happened between my aunt who was babysitting my brother and I at the time and my grandpa. I haven't forgotten that. yes some details may have gotten fuzzy but i remember being afraid of him and being at the neighbors house and him screaming at the door my mom had to come and pick us all up.

I dunno i guess if i heard that he was taking responsibility for some of his actions and choices maybe i would be receptive to having a relationship but from what I've heard he made some crack last year about my mother starting trouble... and honestly she had done nothing at all.
I just can't be a part of his "woe is me I am old my "wife" is dead and now I have no one" pity party
I think if i saw him playing grandpa to my younger cousins i would be sick. cus yes i am still that bitter and yea i know i am bitter no one has to tell me that. cus it bugs the fuck out of me. they don't know anything of the past and he doesn't have to deal with the consequences of his choices looking into their eyes.. ok granted the man is going blind and can't really look into their eyes but ya know what i mean lol

ok I think i am done ranting hopefully some of it made sense to someone besides me.

Cellphones. People have gotten so rude about constantly being on them. It seems people cannot do ANYTHING without being on the damn phone.
driving, walking the dog, taking the baby for a walk, shopping, it all must be done while on the phone now.

my aunt asked me to dog sit thurs - sunday. I agreed of course. but now i remember big brother starts tomorrow. so this means i will barely be able to watch let alone screencap the feeds.
I barely use her computer while i am at her house. times like these i wish i had a laptop.
I need me a sugar daddy to hook me up with a laptop lol

yes i have. My Grandma Simon. when i was staying with her during the day she started choking and i had to heimleich her.

my cousin had her Graduation/birthday party at their lake house yesterday.
that was ... um well an event to put it mildly.
The day started out well we got there at like 3:30 maybe. left later than we wanted but oh well.
When we got there Helen, Chloe, and Emma were on the golfcart and wanted me to go with them. We had literally just pulled up and I wanted to say hello to everyone. So they left and I didn't see them for a long time. I went swimming in the lake. Hung out with my cousin Bryon and his girlfriend Allyson. on this huge raft thing my aunt bought.
Of course we ate. Heard it was going to rain... I was on the phone with a friend and he said that it wouldn't reach us for a couple hours or so so my cousin Caroline and I went back in the water for awhile.
I got out maybe 20 mins before it started to rain. I was sitting on the dock with Bryon, Caroline, and Allyson talking and we felt drops. We ended up going to sit on the boat. Sat out there for a loooong time took some great pics of the sunsetting.
There was some drama won't get into in this post... BUT I am sure I will throw a friends only post in and talk about it.
My Mom's dad was there (no this wasn't cause for the drama) but I didn't talk to him. Honestly I had planned on calling him Mr.M(fill in the rest of his last name) instead of calling him grandpa.
But he didn't say anything to me and I didn't say anything to him. I walked past him quite a few times.

The pic here was taken from the deck. my aunt's dock is the one on the right with the lights on it.

oh I have a few.
P.Y.T
The Girl is Mine
Human Nature
Dirty Diana
You Are Not Alone
Smooth Criminal
In the Closet
Remember The Time
The Lady in my life

I have to say the Thriller album and all the songs on it are still one of my very faves. I played that record like crazy when i got it.
I'll never forget when my mom gave it to me.
My parents had gone shopping and when they got home she had something for me. I opened it and ran to the record player and put it on.

today has been busy, it seems like this week is so busy and yet it's only Tuesday.. ok now it's Wednesday since it's almost 2:30am
Today I watched the kids. Liam was a holy terror. I had to help Chloee with her thank you cards that she needed to send to the people who went to her birthday party Saturday.
Well Liam I don't know if it's cus i had to spend time with Chloee and help her and he's used to getting my full attention since most times it's me and him in the afternoons. It also could have been that it was hot outside and we were cooped up inside the house.
Chloee had just bought a slinky today with a gift card she got from her birthday.... well Liam already ruined it while we were busy doing the cards.
 finally he settled a little bit then we finished the cards and went to watch Chloee's new scooby doo movies.
Hopefully thursday will be a little better.

Tonight mom and I had eye appointments. my prescription hasn't changed much and the doc said that my astigmatism has gotten better. so i am kinda jazzed about that. I mean i have worn glass/contacts since i was in first grade and usually the news is that my eyes have gotten worse.
Granted my eyes have not really changed much in the past 4 years at least... so that's good.
I didn't order contacts yet since the doc said there are new contacts out and she wants to try a pair or two before i commit to anything... which is good since the new contacts are made differently and she wants to see how my eyes react to them.
We also talked about macular degeneration which my maternal grandfather has and my mom's brother was diagnosed with a couple years ago. I am kinda worried about that. She said that my eyes looked great and to make sure i take a multivitamin and some omega 3 vitamins and to always always always wear sunglasses outside. UV from the sun is a contributor to macular degeneration.
Mom's prescription hasn't changed much either and she ordered new glasses. she wanted to make sure she gets them before mom and dad go on vacation so she can get used to them before she has to go back to work. the frames she picked out are really nice.

Then we went to dinner just stopped at portillo's since it's near the tanning salon. we had awhile to wait to go tan so we ended up shopping. i got a couple pairs of capri's shorts and some leggings. i have to say... the only reason i am glad they are bringing back some 80's fashions are the leggings finally the good leggings that i missed when the 80's were over. i LIVED in leggings back in the day. so i got 4 pairs they were on sale 2 for 15 bucks. I couldn't really find any tops i liked though so i only came home with one top. I really need some summer tops though. I hardly ever go shopping in the summer so most of my cute tops are longer sleeved.

then we went to tan.

tomorrow I think we are going to stop over at my brother's to visit with them. Haven't seen them much lately. I saw my SIL and the baby at the wedding shower last week but i didnt visit with them much since i was wandering talking to everyone.
Last i heard my brother and SIL and the baby were going camping this weekend but they aren't now or something so maybe they will go to the graduation party for my cousin up at my aunt's lake house.
I am kinda excited about the party. I am really thinking of swimming i LOVE to swim. which will be good since then i wont have to do makeup or hair since it'll just get ruined by the water anyway.

Ok this is kinda what's going on in my life this week. I am tired now so i think i might actually try to sleep... unless i get distracted by something and stay up lol

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“Hello everybody. I'm leaving a voice post because well you know our internet is out. We had massive storms today. Earlier today everything was fine. We had phone we had internet but it was a about I don't know a little after 7:00 that this huge huge storm blew through. I mean there was like you know wind and lightning and it was really scary for a minute and really it didn't last very long with the blowing and whatever but it knocked out our power for I don't know about 15 secs something like that but enough to knock out well everything out in the house. We had to redo all of the clocks and whatever but when it came back on our internet and the cable and our phone is all maxed out. So cos you know we have time to have triple play and since everything is together ___ cable and whatever usually we don't lose our TV. That's one thing we hardly ever lose. The internet and the cable are different story. Those sometimes do go out but we never lose our TV. Right now we have no TV and let me tell you it's freaking boring. I have to say it's like barely raining right now hopefully time cast will get their ass together and we'll have cable and internet and phone too and I will talk to you all later. Bye.” Auto-Transcribed Voice Post

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so  i made a tumblr just for quotes i like.
lately it's been more love or break up kinda quotes but if something touches me i tend to post it here. If you know of any quotes that you think i'd like please tell me, post it here or email me or whatever.

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Where has the time gone?? I mean this year has gone by so fast.
I know i haven't written a bunch in awhile I blame twitter. BUT i really haven't had much to say.
Nothing much has been going on in my life.
The past two weeks we've had my brother's dogs here since they are on vacation.
I got the invite to my cousin's wedding shower (you all know how much i hate those) The wedding is in August.
 I really need to do laundry, I should be doing it today.. and I may end up doing it in a few. This week will be busy tomorrow and thursday i a going to be watching the kids but i'll have Evan too and Wed I have to go to my brothers to watch Evan since my brother has a side job going on, working with his friend painting.
So I should have new pics to share
oh crap i don't think i ever posted pics of my brother's wedding did i? whoops I need to do that too.
Mom and I are going to start tanning this week. So at least i will have some color.

Ok i am gonna start doing some laundry need some clean clothes. Gotta plan the wardrobe for the week.
have a GREAT week.

my last name was changed from the original spelling so anyone with my last name is related to me. So i have never met anyone with the same full name as i.