Ok today is the anniversary of the Our Lady of the Angels school fire.
it's been 51 years since the fire.
My dad and aunt went to the school at the time of the fire. My Aunt was in the grade the ended up losing a lot of kids. She was actually supposed to have been in one of the classrooms that lost many many children. My grandparents had moved from the neighborhood but then moved back and my aunt wasn't in the room she should have been. She was due to be transferred into that classroom in a week or so. Her best friend Suzie was the worst burned and lived the longest after the fire. Suzie did end up passing away. My aunt has told me about the fire many times, she ended up staying after she got out of the school and witnessed some not so nice things. My dad was a year younger than her and went straight home he's never talked about it but anyone who knows my dad knows he never tells ANY stories about when he was a kid.
I read a book about the fire when i was in 3rd or 4th grade. A classmate (she was a bit older than my aunt) who was burned in the fire wrote a book called The Fire That Will Not Die (her name was Michele McBride in case anyone wants to look up the book it's back in print. I need to get it again I have no idea what happened to the two copies we had here) It's about her experiences as someone who was burned in the fire.
There is also another book called Angels Too Soon there is also a program called chicago stories on WTTW tonight (for those in chicagoland) that talks about the fire it's on one of the digital channels. On Comcast here in chicago it's on at 9pm on channel 243 if you don't have comcast it's on 11.2 (I think that's the from the OLAfire website they sent out an email about it being on.) I haven't been able to get thru the book To Sleep With the Angels it's just too sad but they do talk about the person who could be responsible for the fire. For a long time people blamed the janitor. My aunt has told me about the kid that they think did it. His family moved out of the neighborhood sometime after the fire.
The OLA fire site has pictures and lots of stuff on it. I've even found pictures of my dad and aunt with their classes in the photos and news area in the class photos area. Kinda weird to see my dad that little and in school lol.
i was going to set this post as friends only so it didn't get imported to my facebook but I'm going to let it stay public.

well he has diverticultis again. uum yea cus he never changed his diet. i knew that would come back(since that part of his colon had been removed last year during one of the surgeries to fix stuff).
This is aggravating cus this diverticulitis did not have to come back. But my father who knows EVERYTHING *eyeroll* did and probably will not add the fiber he needs to his diet.
 His instructions for today were to eat lightly and avoid greasy foods... guess where we stopped for food on the way home.
Gene and Jude's (for those who don't know it's a place to get hot dogs and french fries) way to go on following doctor's orders, dad.
I guess they removed a few polyps and they are being tested. We should know results in a week or so.
well that's if dad actually tells us these results unlike when they found cancer and it took us what 6 or more months for us to know about that.. yea thanks dad.

Gonna talk about dad's colonoscopy ( click me )

ok I wrote about my fathers upcoming colonoscopy last week right... and how he needed to do all the stuff the day before the test... well it's the day before the test.
so far he has only taken the six laxative pills he was supposed to start at 7am. he started late at 8:30.
he was supposed to drink 10oz of this stuff at around 10:30am since he started late. well he hasn't as of yet and it's 1:20pm
he is supposed to start the gallon of stuff soon.
supposedly he took the laxative pills and he's started throwing up. well it says on the note thing that if you do puke to call the doctor to let them know.
this is fucking ridiculous. Ok my mom called it on how he was going to be. she was right I was sooo wrong.

Ok I decided i will take pics of this stuff with a date and time stamp. and if mom wants to take them tomorrow with her to the doc I will upload them to walgreens and she can stop there before she comes home from work so she can show the doctor. at least there will be photo proof of what he did not do. I am sick of his bullshit dude..

Ok dad is going for his Colonoscopy next week. (i will be talking about it so I will add a cut if you don't want to read about it)
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been awhile since i updated. My parents are on vacation. they went to visit my grandpa. they got some news not from HIM but from Gloria his girlfriend. I guess they found cancer in his prostate. My mom doesn't know much and I guess he has a doc appointment the 30th and my mom did ask Gloria to call her and tell her what the doc says.
My grandpa is already saying that there is nothing that can be done and stuff my mom thinks that is because of what happened when they found cancer with my grandma.
but by the time they found it with her it had spread and there was really nothing they could do.
I am hoping for the best of course. i don't always get along with my gramps but he's still my gramps ya know. this is the grandfather that has been there for me all my life unlike my mom's dad.
as far as i know my grandpa still hasn't told my parents anything about the cancer and the only information has come from Gloria.

I did get other news my cousin cecilie was arrested for prostitution... this is the cousin i have written about before and there is a tag so you can read about when she was here before (here's the link http://anya1976.livejournal.com/tag/cecilie+drama ) I have to say i am not shocked that she's following in the footsteps of her crackwhore mother. I had hopes my cousin annette would clean her shit up but she obviously likes being a crackwhore.

i guess they are going to monitor these spots which the doc thinks are nothing
dad will need a colonoscopy every year to make sure nothing comes back.

maybe this is the scare dad needed to change his bad habits. and next time he has a colonoscopy he will actually finish the bottle of laxative so the docs can actually see if there is anything there.

the doc called. he didn't tell me this afternoon for some reason but he called my brothers. I heard from my mom.
He has 3 small spots on his liver. they the will treat with chemo and they said that should take care of them.
but this stil makes me nervous. I guess  he's gonna see if the doc calls him to see this one specialist or something but if they don't call by friday he's calling to make the appointment. I just hope that this isn't the beginning of something bad. That once they do the chemo he'll be fine. So keep good thoughts his way.

Dad didn't call (from what we know) to get his results from the CT scan. so i have no update for that yet... hopefully tomorrow.

it's raining again we just had water in our basement yet again over the weekend from getting a ton of rain (just over 2 inches)
we are supposed to be getting a ton of rain tomorrow afternoon HOPEFULLY the worst of it goes south, I am really sick of sucking water off the floor.

Mom and i went back to hobby lobby to get some more stuff for the bridal shower. we are almost done with all this crap the shower is sunday.
we got ribbon to tie around the vases we bought for the flowers and ribbon to tie up the party favors. We have to print out the tag things we have for this thing mom bought a heart shaped hole punch so we could have fancy holes for the stupid ribbon.(not like anyone will notice)
I have to say hobby lobby has a ton of crap for scrapbooking maybe i should try that out huh or i could do what i had been doing and do it with digital scrapbook pages and maybe one day i'll get them printed out.
Hopefully i'll have enough pics of stuff to do something like that. I do take lots of pics of my cousins and stuff when we han gout so who knows.
Ok i should try going to sleep since it's 1am and i have to watch the kids tomorrow but i am just not feeling that tired yet.

my brother stopped over here earlier he had Kelly's crib and changing table with him Liam is getting a big boy bed and his own room soon and kelly wanted to get the crib and stuff out of her house and i know my mom wanted to get a crib and changing table in case Evan ever sleeps over here or anything. Even if they come over to visit i guess it's nice to have the changing table and the bed just in case they are here and he's crabby for sleep or something. can at least put him down for a nap without worrying about him rolling off a bed and what not.
NOW we just need to figure out where to put it lol that spare room upstairs is getting kinda full lol. I should take a picture it's a disaster in there.
I thought my mom just wanted one of those small porable cribs or something but now we have this full blown thing. I mean i guess if i ever get pregnant and we still have it it'll be nice.. but my getting pregnant is kind of a longshot at this moment in time.

ok well dad went for this CT scan Wed. I was supposed to go with him but he left without me for some reason.
Supposedly he had changed his mind about having someone go with him. When my mom told him when she was home for lunch a little before that I was going to go with him.
He is supposed to call for his results on monday.
My mom says that he better call when she's home so she can hear what the doctor says.
She's also going to ask the doctor if they had told my dad what they found when he was still in the hospital after his surgery or just recently like he claims. Sorry but my bet is on they told him what they found back when they did the surgery in october. They generally don't NOT tell you when they find cancer and all of a sudden spring it on ya like "oh yea btw didn't we tell ya, sorry our bad" yea that doesn't happen in a hospital.
If she finds out my dad is telling the truth about not finding out til just recently then she will let the doc have it well if she find out that my dad is lying she's probably gonna kill him.
So if you see a woman on the news for killing her husband  its probably my mom.

In other news we got the favors for the bridal shower. mom wanted to do something a tad different and she got these little mini teacup tealight candle holders they are very pretty. i took a couple pics but i didn't upload them so i will have to add the pics to this post when i do that.
I just can't wait til this shower is over I am sick of all the shit that needs to be done for one. Remind me to not have a "shower" if i ever get married. I'd want something very informal just hanging out  maybe go bowling or something sing karaoke or something  hell of a lot better than hoity toity bullshit that's for sure.

( tealight holder pics )

Dad has a CT scan tomorrow. I am going with just in case he can't drive home. Man do I really hate hospitals especially where he is concerned.
I don't WANT to go tomorrow i had planned just staying in jammies all day but that isn't happenin now.
Next week i guess he should have the results from the scan Mom is going to the doc with him then.

Ok the kids were up early i fed them breakfast... twice and tried to nap between the times they came in to ask me stuff they had promised to sleep in since i let them stay up late.
Then of course plans changed of when i had to bring them home cus i now had to pick up Vick and Chloe from the movie theater so i had to be there when their movie ended which meant I had to leave at least a half hour earlier than i had planned so no playing with makeup with the kids they wanted to take another bubble bath so they spent 45 mins playing in the tub. They had taken a bubble bath the night b4 too they spent 30 mins in the tub that time.
We goofed around painted nails and they watched movies saturday night. I guess they had a good time. I really didnt have to yell at anyone which is good. Kate can sometimes get on my nerves cus she's such a spoiled child i sometimes need to remind her that i am not her mother or father and she doesn't get her way with me.

when they girls finally felt like going to sleep i put the movie Elf in for them and then i put on repeat so it would play all night... which i must say worked well in case they woke up or whatever at least they'd have the movie to watch instead of having to go thru the channels on the tv and possibly landing on something they should not be watching (since we have cinemax and all that on our movie channels they have the soft core porn crap on late at night sometimes)

ok so back to today... the girls took their bath and then i fed them lunch and it was pretty much time to go after the whole "do you have all of your stuff to bring home" drill. Making sure everyone had EVERYTHING they came with, stuffed animals blankets pillows socks underwear everything they need to normally sleep with lol. I've had times with kate in the past where she had forgotten to bring something she sleeps with to my house when shes come over to spend the night and dealing with a kid who doesn't have her blanket or her fave stuffed animal is NOT fun and i was not going back to her house if she did forget something at least not tonight... I had a long ass drive already i had to pick one set of girls up from the movies then bring everyone back to my aunt and uncle's then drop kate off take all her stuff out of the car then make sure Chloe had all her stuff to put IN my car cus i still had to drive another half hour away from my one aunt's house to my other aunt's house to drop off the other two kids.
when we got to their house i ended up going in with them and i honestly had no intention to stay. I talked to my uncle a bit he asked how my dad was doing so i told him the whole thing and then the kids wanted me to help them with their sims 2 game they just bought it so i was helping them with some cheats. I was telling them about some of my sims families and i showed them one family in the strangetown neighborhood that gets abducted by aliens lol i have to say the sims 2 double deluxe has fancier graphics when the dude gets abducted than my game cus i have the orignal game that i bought when the sims 2 came out. Ok so 3 hrs after i got to their house i was finally leaving for my nice long hour drive home.
had to stop and get gas on the way home froze my butt off pumping it got home put my pj's on vegged out.
Then john called and he was getting food at the mexian place next to his house i mentioned being hungry so he offered to bring me a chicken burrito. So he brought me a burrito and a pumpkin spice latte from  dunkin' donuts.
So of course i was wired after the coffee.
He hung out here with me for awhile then left right b4 my parents got home.
my mom found the camera i wanted for christmas FINALLY at best buy where my dad was getting his new sirius set up he also bought a lifetime subscription cus honestly my parents use it all the time and my dad brings the radio with him to work.
I sat up talkin to my dad checkin out his new sirius lol my mom said that he was opening the box and taking things out b4 they were even out of the store lol she said they were barely out of the checkout line.
My dad is kinda hinting that he wants my camera since i got a new one.... i may end up givin it to him since his is older than mine i think it's only like a 3 megapixel.
Ok i am bad after they went to sleep and since i am still up semi wired from coffee i opened my camera. I am charging the battery now. I am gonna see if i can keep it b4 christmas. I mean my mom is gonna buy my brother something for his new house like a lazy boy or something big so you know he's gonna get that before christmas my mom isn't getting kevin and gayle anything cus she just bought the baby the dresser and the crib and they asked not to exchange this year since their money is being saved for the baby since the baby will be born early in the new year. Mike and Kourtney just bought the house so I am not exchanging with them either their money is going to their house. So if no one is really exchanging what's the biig deal right... i mean I know it's a christmas present i am not gonna be pissed cus nothing is under the tree i mean fuck i am over that we are getting our stockings from santa so really what's the big deal... I'll play with my camera some tonight put it back and then talk to my mom at dinner tomorrow lol see if i can snake the camera b4 christmas.
She still needs to tell me what she wants for christmas the woman is killin me. I need to know how much money i am saving for her present.
My father isn't really getting anything i mean he just got the sirius thing that's what he wanted.he's a pain in the ass to buy for anyway.
Last year i got my mom a present and filled her stocking with stuff she wanted mom always gets screwed on her stocking. everyone always gets theirs filled and hers gets like one or two things. but if i get her something that costs more she will get a tad less in her stocking (not that my brothers will help contribute to filling it either)

ok so it was kind of an exahusting weekend yet i am still up at almost 4:30am damn coffee lol but it was so good. i'm still waiting for my battery for the new Nikon S550 to charge (it should be almost done) I'll play for a few mns then i am soooo going to bed.

sorry this is long winded and rambling but it's late i am tired and coming off a caffiene high so i am sure you understand lol.

I heard my dad go outside i didn't realize that he was waiting for them in his car. they showed up at almost 1:30 and he saw them for about 10 mins.
My cousin Carol had been ready to come here since 9am it seems no one else was motivated to see their uncle/brother.
From what I heard my aunt wanted to use our shower and well if they would have gotten here early she could have and only when my dad said he had to leave for work she wanted to know if i was home so she could shower. He told her I wasn't home cus honestly i didn't want to see brandee or michelle my aunt or carol i really have no issue with.
If i would have known these assholes were only gonna be here for 10 mins i would have told carol the night before to spend the night so she could spend time with my dad. I mean we have more than enough beds to sleep in.
I guess since nothing was really in it for them to visit my dad they were not motivated to get up and get here early enough to actually visit with him.
Shit like this pisses me off.

ok well dad said today that his sister and my cousins are coming tomorrow.... OK... he never told us how long they were staying so I called Kelly and told her that I'd have to unfortunately not come watch the kids tomorrow because i had no idea of what would happen would they stay would they go... what.

OK my mom were in the kitchen putting stuff away from the weekend the chip/dip bowl the different platters and pickle bowls and all that stuff. and we were talking about them coming.
all of a sudden the front doorbell rings. we froze then we walked to our living room kinda peaked around the entertainment center to look out the window a bit the big ass RV was in the circle we both pretty much said "fuck".
 then the doorbell rang again and i said uum we HAVE to answer the door they know we are in here.
so i went to answer the front door but no one was there and there was knocking on the back door. My mom got the door.
My cousin Carol walked in and no one followed her. (which was refreshing)
I haven't seen carol since i was 18 and down in fla.
She said they were in the area and she had to stop by even though they are coming tomorrow. They were driving their old neighborhoods and stuff from when they lived up here in chicago. I guess they had kinda got lost and Michelle who was driving found 25th ave (which i live close to) she knew where she was once she was on 25th.
Carol walked downstairs to see our basement. She hasn't been in our house in 20 years my Grandma was still alive when she was here last. My cousins had come up for christmas to surprise my grandma 20 years ago Michelle came with her son he was only maybe 3 at the time or something.
That was a good christmas even though they showed up on our doorstep christmas eve lol they even had presents from Santa to open christmas morning. (this was really b4 all this bad blood really got goin)
 We talked to carol a bit more then her phone rang it was Michelle telling her that if she wanted to stay they would come back to pick her up. Carol had mentioned them coming in to say hello to me and my mom but michelle made some excuse about not wanting to come in cus she hadn't showered today and that they'd be here tomorrow.
THEN we found out that Michelle's daughter Brandee is with them... she's the bitch that stole my mom's makeup out of her makeup bag in the bathroom.
Carol told us that she has to work on thursday so they will probably leaving right after they visit my dad...... SO i didn't really HAVE to stay home tomorrow but since i had to give kelly an answer early  I had to be better safe than sorry. Unless things change and crap changes from now til sometime tomorrow.

I just wanted to keep ya'll in the loop but i have to say my mom and i both hiding behind our entertainment center cus i saw the RV was pretty fucking hysterical.

Ok the dreaded suck ass family is in town staying with a cousin of my dad's right now. They are coming here tomorrow. I have no idea if they are staying here. My mom has no idea if they are staying here. My dad works early tomorrow so he's leaving by 1pm I guess they are supposed to be here by 11am (the time i am getting up to start getting ready to leave to watch the kids).
I had told my mom they were probably here for the 50th anniversary of the OLA fire. I was right they went to the memorial thing they had this morning. Honestly I'd like to have gone, but I wouldn't tell my mom that lol.
I called Kelly to let her know that if they do intend to stay here I will not be leaving my house tomorrow. They will not be left alone in my house.
So if they do stay i will have to take one for the team. I have to let Kelly know asap if i will be there tomorrow. I told her i would let her know when I find out.
I really wanted to hang with the kiddos tomorrow too.
In other news we have some snow. maybe an inch I took a few pics I'll have to take them off my camera.

I also feel like shit I got my period and i have cramps like a mother. I don't have to make anything fancy for dinner just pasta sooo i may go back to sleep for awhile.

our lady of the angels fire 95 students killed 50th anniversary -- chicagotribune.com:

every year I remember this anniversary. My Dad and Aunt went to the school at the time.
My Aunt lost lots of friends, her best friend passed away a few months after the fire. She was badly burned.
I read The Fire That Will Not Die by Michelle McBride when i was in 3rd or 4th grade it was written by a survivor of the fire.
It was out of print but I think they got it published again. It's a very good book. I wish I knew where the copy my Grandma had bought was. I'd like to read it again as an adult since I read it as a kid. I'll probably end up buying it again actually

Mom went to go pick him up a little while ago.
I still feel horrible and now i have this horrible cough. which let me tell ya is no fun.
I am debating if i am going to watch the kids tomorrow. I mean i need the money and I'd hopefully just have Liam tomorrow anyway since i think Chloee may have her yoga class. So that would be better than having both of them and possibly getting them both sick (even though Liam was the one that got me sick).
I am SICK of being sick. I need a magic pill that will take it all away. its honestly just sinus pressure sneezing and now coughing my sore throat is pretty much gone besides my making it sore by coughing so much. I have almost gone thru a whole box of kleenex (just opened it yesterday or the day b4).
I would like to lay down and sleep but this cough is keeping me awake. *sigh*

well dad isn't coming home today now it may be tomorrow. who knows when he's coming home.
He must be feeling better cus he asked my mom to bring him a hot dog to the hospital (she said no).

Yesterday while shopping we got this caramel iced coffee mix thing. I wanted to try it so i made a packet with 1/2 cup of coffee and 1/2 of milk i probably could have thrown some ice in there to make it more like a frappuccino but it was good. I am generally not one for coffee so the caffeine affects me a little bit(which is why i only used a 1/2 cup of coffee)
I must say this is good stuff though it does taste just like one of those expensive coffee house treats (got it at target for like 4 bucks)

When i woke up this morning i felt terrible i am trying to not take anything for my sinuses that dries them up cus that makes me uncomfortable i need something that could relieve the pressure without totally drying them out and making them feel uum tight... i think that's the word i am looking for.
My throat was killing me when i woke up but probably from stuff dripping from my nasal cavities cus it seems fine now my voice isn't back yet and now i have a bit of a cough (dammit).
I am trying to stay away from people as much as i can since i don't want EVERYONE sick... that would suck you know.
For someone who is sick i seemed to do quite a bit. I have gone out and done stuff when i probably should have been in bed. (my date thursday night but i swear i did feel better after i had some sleep) and yesterday going shopping. Friday i stayed home but i didn't feel like i just lounged i was doing stuff and then handing out candy and all that.
I helped mom do stuff today and i probably should have stayed in bed. tomorrow i promise i am not doing shit I seriously need ONE full day of just staying in bed and sleeping ALL day.

I am watching Liam on tuesday again so i want to be better hopefully won't get reinfected all over again since my immune system is already working over time. So that is another reason why I want to just lay in bed all day tomorrow. I will wake up to make dinner and that is pretty much it. I want to be a bum all day and do not care what anyone else says. Shit when my brothers or my dad are sick they don't do anything and have everyone bring them shit and wait on them hand and foot... well i don't do that i get my own crap make my own food and probably get out of bed more than i should to do shit for myself. in all honesty it would be nice to have someone wait on me hand and foot but i doubt that'll ever happen. *sigh* maybe one day, right? ya never know i guess.

I could not find this thing at all but i called my aunt and she had it.
I will add the recipe to this post though.
Well as i think i said b4 i am losing my voice so i sound GREAT. Of course everyone i talk to today says "wow you sound terrible" so i of course say thank you.
I talked to my sister in law today and she asked me if her sister (who i babysit for) had told me that in addition to Kelly's kids I will be watching my niece or nephew when Gayle goes back to work. Kelly is home 3 days a week since she has her own chiropractic practice and makes her own hours. This is why i only watch the kids twice a week. But since Kelly is gonna watch the baby on tuesday and thursday I'll be watching the baby too. I am kind of excited cus i really didnt think i'd see the baby all that much.

We didn't have that many trick or treaters but we had more than we had last year. My mom got all excited to see the costumes and hand out candy.

My dad will HOPEFULLY be coming home tomorrow they still haven't given him solid food yet and they are kinda waiting for him to have a BM and without solid food that's kinda not gonna happen.

Ok now if you only tuned in for the recipe here it is.
( witches brew )

ok last night i had a tickle in my throat i took airborne and went to bed not long after.
well i woke up at 5am and my throat hurt so bad it wasn't even funny.
ow it's almost noon I feel like crap my throat still hurts i need to take another airborne but i also need to shower cus i am watching the kids today.
I kinda have a date tonight and honestly if i don't feel good i am going to have to cancel. I don't want to cancel but i don't want to get someone else sick.
Liam was sick the other day when i watched him so i know where my getting sick came from. I am usually pretty good about not getting sick when they kids are sick (honestly Liam has been sick a few times when i've watched him and i haven't gotten anything)
My dad actually may be coming home today so if i am sick i can't be around him since he's recovering from surgery.
 this seriously sucks ass.
I am not a happy camper right now, but what i really want to do is SLEEP and lay in my bed but i can't. I need to get in the shower and get ready to go.
I have to make a shopping list for dinner tomorrow night since it's halloween and every halloween we make witches brew. My mom had gotten the recipe from her best friends mom a loooooooooooong time ago and we've made it ever since.
I think we have everything except the ground meat but i am honestly not motivated to even check.

well dad is probably not coming home today he's been in the hospital for 5 days. They haven't moved him from the more intensive floor it's not intensive care but it's for those who require more care (cardiac patients, after surgery when the surgical intensive care unit is full) he can't have his cellphone on that floor since they have more monitoring equipment there.
I predicted he'd be in the hospital for like 2 weeks mom had hoped he would only be there as long as the doc said (4 to 5 days)
Still no word on the polyp test maybe we'll know something today about that.
He needs to do a few things b4 he gets released one of them is pass gas and i am sure since this has to do with his colon you can figure out the rest. He has only been on a liquid diet so image how hard both of those things are. My mom thinks that my dad likes to be in the hospital so the longer he is there the happier he is. Last time he was in the hospital he was there for like a month.

	dad waiting 01 sometime after 6am
	dad waiting 02 sometime after 8am
	view from the room we were waiting in the lovely hines hospital parking lot
	right before they took him down and they didn't start surgery til after noon sometime and we did not get home from the hospital til after 8pm
	the room on the 8th floor where we started out just before we left to go down to the surgical waiting room

ok i tried for a "day in the life" but there were lots of people in the surgical waiting room and i didn't want to bug them with my picture taking and by the time it cleared out we had been there for 8 or more hours and the "fun" of it kind of wore off.
The chairs in the waiting room are the most uncomfortable chairs EVER the chairs we sat in in the room he was in b4 they took him to surgery were better. the best chairs of all were in the main area of the hospital why can't they have THOSE chairs for families waiting to hear about their loved ones who are in SURGERY we deserve comfort!!!!

Dad came thru surgery well. they kept bumping him for more serious cases and when he did finally get into surgery they found he had a big polyp that they did not see in the colonoscopy sooo they had to do more extensive surgery on him that was anticipated. They cut the area of his colon that had the polyp out and it has been sent to the lab to see if it is cancer or not. so we are cautiously optimistic. Dad has has polyps b4 that have all turned out to be nothing.
I have been up since 4am we spent 14 or so hours at the hospital i am very tired. so i am probably just going to watch tv veg out on my bed and fall asleep.

Dad's surgery is now set for early we have to be at the hospital AT 6am not getting up at 6am to be at the hospital at 8am.
I am not a happy camper i am debating just going to bed after life on mars and getting up whenever i wake up. i will shower b4 i go to bed so i am not showering in the morning cus fuck that shit man i am not getting up any earlier than i have to i guess.
tomorrow iam going to be the walking dead.
i am charging the battery for my dvd player now even though it is only a 2hr battery. but i will be bringing my cord just in case.
i always bring way too much shit but i hate being bored and at the hospital i AM bored.
i charged my ds not long ago so that is fine and i think i have the cord for that in my dvd bag just in case.

ok well dad's surgery is set for friday.
of course mom wants me to go with (as per usual). we don't have to be at the hospital til about 8am so that's better then getting there really really early.(maybe i will bring my camera and document my day that will make it a little more fun well for me anyway)
I will be bringing my dvd player my mp3 player nintendo ds and my book.
i am not looking forward to this surgery cus i hate hospitals.
I talked to my mom's cousin today and shes having surgery 2 days before thanksgiving so my cousin abbie and i have to take her out and get her drunk b4 then. Then she was asking to find out my schedule so when she's out of commission i can go check on her mom(my mom's aunt).
So... i will probably be able to help with that on days i am not watchin the kids. I know my aunt is probably gonna take Wednesdays. but i won't have to worry about this until  december and january. Cath is going to be out of commission for like 2 months.
she's having surgery on her mouth and she may be having her jaw wired shut she won't know til she wakes up from surgery if that is being done or not.
So it sounds like my december/january is going to be way busy. I feel like i need a nap just thinking about it lol. My Great Aunt lives like an hour away.... soooo that will be interesting depending on how snowy our winter is going to be.(lets hope it's not going to be snowy at all lol)

well today started out earlier than usual for me had to be there to watch the kids an hour earlier. Had a strange dream but it was oddly fulfilling i woke up and giggled a bit.
traffic was like non existent so driving was awesome. Then i get to the mcdonalds drive thru and freak out cus i can't find my 20 dollar bill granted i had a 10 so used that to pay but i am now freaking out cus i could not find my 20 dollars i KNEW was in my purse so i freak out as i continue to drive to Kelly's.
I get to kelly's and tear apart my purse looking for the 20 dollar bill i found it thank goodness.
I"ll need it for this weekend if this weekend goes to plan. Since it's my treat if i end up going to the drive in like I want to do.
I hope we get to go  i really really wanna go.

well Liam didn't wake up the whole time i was over there. Kinda missed playin with him but i'll see him next week.

Dad is having surgery to get the bag removed next friday and since it's friday I am sure mom will want me to go with her. which will kinda suck i freakin hate hospitals. Especially since the past few years dad's been in for one surgery or another. You'd think he'd start taking care of himself so he could avoid these surgeries.

Now i am chilling out before dinner. Dad is making Corned beef. I am so not hungry i stuffed myself at lunch but i will eat a bit of dinner then probably have some leftovers later on.

Ok so this is what's happened in my day today how was yours?

ok i was drivng my dad to work..  normally i wouldn't have to but he had the day off then work called and needed him my mom has his car i am taking her car today (mine is still broken) so i had to drive him to work.
Ok i take side streets they are easier and i don't have to deal with a bunch of lights.
I got a lecture the whole way about how side streets are bad cus they make the brakes go out faster. If this is the case isn't then driving bad??
since it makes the brakes go out faster. and since u are stopping at more stop signs side streets are evil. well i live on a side street is it bad to drive home? we have to stop at stop signs.
then he asked me to go to the bank for him so i had to rush to the bank and now i showered and writing this really quick b4 i have to finish getting ready i have to leave in a little less than a half hour. i am debating if i want to stop and get food on the way i am not exactly hungry since i ate a late breakfast. but i digress
ok off to finish getting ready
ttyl

sitting at the dinner table with mom and dad. dad finishes dinner gets the dictionary  has a piece of paper to write something down. then asks my mom how to spell medical. she spells it for him and then asks well didn't you just look it up. He says yes but it didn't look right.
my mom and i both look at each other and say uum it's the DICTIONARY they aren't gonna spell it wrong, and both died laughing. laughed til we cried.

ok venting after the cut for those who do not want to read it.
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haven't really talked to him much he's pretty much been sleepin' but he's home.
I just wanted to let ya'll know he was home. I don't have much to report.
He will have his colostomy bag for like 8 weeks then he will have that removed which will be another surgery and more recovery time but that will probably be much shorter than this time but who knows.
thanks for all the well wishes and good thoughts ya'll have sent our way. It means a lot to me.

ok been home for about an hour this is just a small update i want to go to sleep i've been up since 5am
the doc didn't talk to us after surgery since we told them we would be in the surgical waiting room obviously they looked for us upstairs on the floor dad's room WAS at
not sure what happened i know he made it out of surgery and to his new room on the 10th floor lol I am sure when i find out i'll post about it

of course cus i didn't want to wait hardly any of my add ons are working at the moment. At least i have the LJ ones i use pretty much daily or i'd be lost completely.
I heard it was going to be released today on bbc america this morning but it wasn't up when i went to sleep around then so i did it just a little while ago.

Dad's surgery is set for tomorrow mom wants to leave around 5:30am so i am not sure what i am gonna do about sleep since lately 5am is when i go to sleep lol
I may just go to sleep around 10pm tonight and get up in the middle of the night (like usually happens when i fall asleep around 10)
I am charging my dvd player battery debating on which movies to bring cus mom is a pain in the ass  I dont think i have anything she hasn't seen or what she'd really want to watch... sooo i have to go thru my movies if we werent leaving so fuckin early i'd have her stop at walgreens or something on the way and maybe pick something up i want to get the new national treasure movie on dvd i haven't bought myself that yet. and i know she likes that movie and having a movie to watch is better than waiting room tv the time goes by faster with a movie (we learned that last year when dad had surgery) maybe i can bring the austin powers movies i have i know mom likes those i will bring the holiday she likes that one too
I'll ask her what she wants to watch when she gets home from the hospital visiting dad.
I can search downstairs to see what movies my brother has that maybe we can borrow.
oooo i can bring the pirates of thecarribean movies i knowmom likes those.
ok i am done rambling lol I am so tired.
I watched the kids today so i am worn out lol.
But i did hear from the mom that picks chloee up after daycamp that chloee had asked her to get her home as fast as she could cus i was there and i am cool lol

ok the latest word is he is having surgery on wed.
HOPEFULLY that is what will happen. this is better than having to wait til october but i dont think that is what the doc said cus the risk of reinfection is too high. cus the doc said they can wait 4 to 6 weeks but he would have a colostomy bag and the infection might come back.
at least he's getting it done and over. I have tow atch the kids tomorrow and thursday so this will be a busy week for me.

i went to see my dad at the hospital. Brought him a couple cards. I love those damn cards with the songs in them they are expensive but they crack me up. there was one i picked out that played the song macho man and it had a space where you put a pic of the person you were giving the card to i had the perfect pics to add for my dad. yeaaaaaaars ago 1987 to be exact my dad dressed as a woman for a halloween party so i picked a couple of those pictures for the front of the card lol I cracked up. I don't think my dad got the joke but whatever all the funny stuff is lost on him.

Now we are hearing conflicting stories about his surgery. One doc had said he could have surgery thurs/friday while another was saying he could be released thurs/fri and have this surgery in OCTOBER wtf? why would they put it off til freakin october.
My mom told my dad to ask the doc tomorrow to make sure this is what he meant (since my dad honestly can't hear so good and he needs to go to the hearing doc to have a test done but will not cus he is  a stubborn ass)

ok well he was throwing up today had some test he didn't know what it was for and the doc didn't come when we were there.
he said he's feeling better. But with this pukin thing who knows if he will come home tomorrow like we had hoped.
so it might be Saturday.
BUT he still needs surgery that won't change just cus he feels better.
Not sure when that will be though. I just want all this crap to be over with already just fuckin do the surgery so we can deal with the next phase. I mean will he have his colon will he not. THAT is the big question right now.
Cus shit is gonna have to change at home. Like what he eats.
either he doesn't care and does his usual and he won't live to see his elderly years or he see's the fucking light and starts eating better and taking a bit more care of what he eats.
He's gotta start caring yea we can't force him to do shit but some things will be outlawed in this house. no more hostess cupcakes (that he eats like they are going out of style) and other sweets. he's gonna need to start eating more fruits and vegetables.
we usually have fruit cus i am the one who eats it. i love apples we usually have apples he can have a snack of apples and peanut butter there is fiber in both apples and peanut butter.
Maybe have carrots and dressing for a snack carrots have fiber and i love those little baby carrots those are a great snack. I told mom to get figs, dates and prunes that he can snack on too. craisins have fiber so do regular raisins he likes those. we will start having salads with dinner again mom and i love salad, he will also start eating the vegetables he makes with dinner not just me and mom.

He'll be glad to be home but he won't be glad to hear this shit from the both of us that's for sure.

and honestly if they remove his colon he won't need to change his diet anyway... but then he has his shit in a bag for the rest of his life. we won't know that until the day of his surgery what they can and cannot repair.

ok mom and i went to the hospital. we didn't see a doctor til like 6pm dad didn't have surgery the doc said that since dad has a bladder infection and the part of his colon that has torn is infected they want the infection to go away b4 they have surgery which could take one or two weeks.
Since my dad has vacation from work my mom wants him to find out if they can wait til then to fix his colon since his vacation starts in a couple weeks anyway and instead of taking time off work for him to do this and recover he can have the 2 weeks of vacation to do it.

ok now to what is wrong with my dad. He has diverticulitis he found out about that  4 years ago when he had an infected pollup  that they removed  but he was supposed to add more fiber to his diet. diverticulitis happens when you have a low fiber high fat diet and when you do a #2 you have to strain to do it it creates these pockets in your colon and they can become infected and rupture which is what happened to my dad and since the area that ruptured is near the bladder i think it's like on his bladder it's causing the bladder infection.
 The doc said that they need to see if they can remove the damaged area and close everything up and everything will be fine...
Well worse comes to worse they may need to remove part of the bladder if it's damaged from the infection and he may have to let the colon not be repaired for awhile and have a colostomy bag while that happens which could be a few months til they can go back in and see if they can close up the colon in an even worse situation is they can't repair it at all and have to remove the colon totally.

Dad is going to be in the hospital til tomorrow MAYBE thursday but if he does have to wait 2 weeks til the infection clears he will be released and given oral antibiotics but at least he will be at home.

So this is a lesson to all of you who are not eating any fiber in your diet start taking the fiber pills or add fibersure to your food cus you do not want this to happen to you.

My dad should have listened to the doc back then and changed his diet, NOW he is paying for being stubborn and set in his ways.
This is one heck of an "i told you so" moment cus we told him he would regret not doing what the doc said. we bought the fiber pills and stuff to add to food and for him to take. He never has I will add the fibersure to food but he would not. and I cook when he's not home so only my mom and i are getting that extra fiber.

Since my dad has had these issues it's hereditary so my brothers and i need colonoscopies when we are 40 years old.

ok so he's having surgery today or tomorrow not sure yet mom and i are going up there soon.
hes got a tear in his colon not his bladder this is what you get when you talk to him he has no idea what he's talkin about.. this is why mom sends me to the doc with him at times

OK now we aren't sure about surgery again mom talked to Dad this morning and he said they are gonna try something and he doesnt know if he's going to have surgery again....
Well one good thing about a veteran's hospital is they keep ya guessing.
Mom is gonna try calling him again around noonish when she's on her lunch to see if we know more by then.
My brother and sister in law called yelling already this morning that we didn't call them last night. I was like i am not keeper of the calls i didnt know that mom didnt call and they go to bed early over there so I wasn't gonna get yelled at for callin after 11pm
It's always fun to be woken up by angry cell phone calls let me tell ya.

His cellphone was dying but he told my mom that he has a tear in his bladder and instead of it healing right it didn't so he needs to have surgery.
We have no idea what time he is having surgery. Unless he calls back tonight but he still wasn't in a room yet. They like to take forever at the VA hospital.
I am sure i can update you more tomorrow. I would do a voice post if i go to the hospital BUT my cellphone battery sucks so who knows if i'd even be able to be on the phone long enough to update ya'll  I am not even sure if I am going with mom yet who knows. She hasn't asked me to go.... yet but who knows. I'll be charging my dvd player battery tonight and charging mp3 player batteries and all that just in case.

Ok well my Dad hasn't felt good the past few weeks. He of course chose not to go to the doc. well he FINALLY went today.
He left at 9amish this morning and now they are admitting him for the night. We heard earlier that it was possibly kidney stones again (which he had a few years ago but neglected to do anything to prevent them from coming back of course) Now we are hearing that it could be a tear somewhere and something about a bladder infection.
If it is a tear he will need surgery which will happen tomorrow. but of course we don't know anything right now cus I guess the doctor was in surgery all day and saw my dad after 9pm tonight. Normally i go with my mom if my dad does have surgery but i have to watch the kids tomorrow and of course i find out about all this too late for Kelly to get someone else to watch the kids.
So i have no idea what i am going to do. If dad does have surgery then i know mom will want to go but i am supposed to take her car to Kelly's tomorrow.
i will have to ask mom what's going on so i can maybe leave kelly a voice mail tonight to let her know if i cannot watch the kids tomorrow.
i feel badly about having to cancel but i am sure she will understand.