ok i am making this listing friends only, since i really don't want everyone to be able to read it.
My exboyfriend stopped over today. not really sure why he was only here for a few mins but I wish he would just leave me alone. he either has to step up and be a boyfriend or leave me alone. I can't just "be friends" with him. I was so deeply in love with him it's impossible. He called me on wed then he shows up at my house today.
well he came over I didn't invite him in i was just outside talking to him. then he got a phone call and i got up from my seat and he said he needed to go anyway so i walked to the door then he said 'aren't u going to tell me goodbye' so i said "bye" and closed the door behind me. I don't think i have ever done that to him b4. I have asked him repeatedly to leave me alone. but he does for about 3 months then he will call to "say hi".
Ok i have to say this cus i know people will be like he probably just wants sex I haven't had that kind of relationship with him since we were together. so it's not even like he was getting ex sex.
ugh i hate guys... ok no i don't but this crap needs to stop.

ok my exboyfriend and i got into a fight..... again.
no matter what i do i am always wrong. Since he grew up differently from me I am always wrong. Since i am this "suburbian princess" i am always wrong. I can have no opinion because i was brought up with 2 parents who cared about me.
I am always wrong because i lived in a nice house and had things (little does he know that my parents struggled alot when i was a child they couldn't afford much but at least we got to go on vacation each summer as a family).
But because of these things in his eyes i am always wrong and i have no right to have an opinion on things.
My family never treated him differently because of how he grew up. Actually my family liked him very much til he started blowing me off ALL the time. And even now actually they still like him. They didn't like that we fought often towards the end, but i am sure no family likes seeing that.

I never in a million years thought that being in a family that stayed together and actually had things would be a fault. Believe me my family has it's disfunctions. All families have those and some are worse than others. But he only see's the shiney appearance of living in the suburbs with two parents. Or as he calls it living with a silver spoon shoved up my ass. I don't understand how having things is a bad thing. I am sure he thinks i am more spoiled than i am. I have never gotten everything i have always wanted. I shouldn't have to justify things to him or anyone.
but i guess no matter what i do or say i will always be this "suburban princess" to him.
I realize i shouldn't let the opinions of an exboyfriend get to me, but they do