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Ok, I wanted to see how this OpenID thing worked. On yahoo you need to enable your OpenID. Sign in and then go into your information area (where you change your password and such there will be a link on the right that says edit/create OpenID and  you will get a URL to use for your OpenID) to do that. it's really not that hard.
I was able to get right on with my aol OpenID URL without having to enable anything.

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well he has diverticultis again. uum yea cus he never changed his diet. i knew that would come back(since that part of his colon had been removed last year during one of the surgeries to fix stuff).
This is aggravating cus this diverticulitis did not have to come back. But my father who knows EVERYTHING *eyeroll* did and probably will not add the fiber he needs to his diet.
 His instructions for today were to eat lightly and avoid greasy foods... guess where we stopped for food on the way home.
Gene and Jude's (for those who don't know it's a place to get hot dogs and french fries) way to go on following doctor's orders, dad.
I guess they removed a few polyps and they are being tested. We should know results in a week or so.
well that's if dad actually tells us these results unlike when they found cancer and it took us what 6 or more months for us to know about that.. yea thanks dad.

ok i love halloween
I am not dressing up but i will be handing out candy. I will also be having the halloween tradition of eating "Witches Brew" for dinner. Yum yum yum it's so good. We've had this every year since as long as I can remember.
I think even my mom had it as a kid it's a simple recipe  but it's YUMMY.

I hope my brother brings the baby over so we can see his costume but who knows.
I really don't have much to say but happy halloween and add the witches brew recipe to the blog

( Witches Brew )

Gonna talk about dad's colonoscopy ( click me )

ok I wrote about my fathers upcoming colonoscopy last week right... and how he needed to do all the stuff the day before the test... well it's the day before the test.
so far he has only taken the six laxative pills he was supposed to start at 7am. he started late at 8:30.
he was supposed to drink 10oz of this stuff at around 10:30am since he started late. well he hasn't as of yet and it's 1:20pm
he is supposed to start the gallon of stuff soon.
supposedly he took the laxative pills and he's started throwing up. well it says on the note thing that if you do puke to call the doctor to let them know.
this is fucking ridiculous. Ok my mom called it on how he was going to be. she was right I was sooo wrong.

Ok I decided i will take pics of this stuff with a date and time stamp. and if mom wants to take them tomorrow with her to the doc I will upload them to walgreens and she can stop there before she comes home from work so she can show the doctor. at least there will be photo proof of what he did not do. I am sick of his bullshit dude..

Ok dad is going for his Colonoscopy next week. (i will be talking about it so I will add a cut if you don't want to read about it)
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Fuck Yeah 1980's

I've been on tumblr a lot lately this is one I started but it's more like a LJ community where you can run it with a few people. check it out. if you want to join tumblr and help with it that would be way awesome.
I am always looking for people to help post 80's stuff.
I thought maybe I'd pimp my new fave tumblr here and share with my friends.
I also added it to my links area on my journal along with my personal tumblr which is mostly a picture blog instead of writing anything personal. This is still where I write my personal stuff.
Too bad nothing has happened lately. Been watching the kids and my newphew a whole bunch.

i am just gonna copy and paste from the email she sent.
if you could help her out that would be really really great.

been thinking about this for a couple days... and I felt maybe if i wrote about it i might feel better??? I dunno.
I guess my aunts mom and uncle are supposed to be getting together to talk about what is going to happen with my grandfather (if you can call someone who's barely bee in my life grandfather but i guess by blood that's what he is)
He currently lives in FLA but last summer they had picked him up and he spent the summer up here being rotated from house to house (ok just a couple houses since not everyone currently has a relationship with him *namely mine and my aunt laura*) this year was the same my one aunt and uncle flew down and picked him up and flew back and he's been here all summer. From what I understand they really don't want him living alone. I mean the man is going blind due to macular degeneration.

Now the question is who will take him. I can tell ya right now my mother won't. I know my auntie laura won't either.
From what I heard there are only a few that i guess have even had this summer. He likes to stay at my one aunt's cus she has little kids and he can play grandpa. (ok still am bitter about that i mean i was a little kid and he didn't want to be MY grandpa so yea thanks gramps i appreciate it)

I am still very bitter about him now being back and being at things. i have not talked to him. He's been at 3 things this summer that I was at. My cousin Helen's graduation party. I walked past him and didn't even say hello. He was at my dad's birthday party and I didn't say anything to him there either. He was at my cousin Jason's wedding and I didn't talk to him there either.
Ok maybe it's a tad childish for me just to not talk to him or even say hello... but I guess I don't because I may open my mouth and say something and be rude to him. So i would rather not say anything rather than start trouble and take the focus away from what we are celebrating. I am not shy about telling people how i feel generally so I guess it is soo much better than starting crap.

I know i have written before about my feelings in this situation but i am sorry i am still bothered by the whole thing.
I just don't understand how someone who had grandchildren could just cut them out of his life like that. I mean my brothers and i and a few cousins (that were around when drama went down) were little kids. why would you not want to see us grow up. I just don't understand what kind of person would do that. ok I don't know HIS side but from what i understand he blames my mother for starting stuff when it was his "wife"(my mom said no one is sure if he and Isabel were ever really married or not so i will use quotes for her) doing things and send letters to my mom and my aunts.
I am curious to read these letters. My mom has them or at least copies of the originals.

It's just hard for me to believe that a man could be so pussy whipped that he would put her over his own children and grandchildren. it's just mind boggling. I mean I have dated men with children. His kids always come first. I would never expect any different. one of my ex's was pushing me to meet his kids and i kept saying no, that since we didn't know where our relationship was going I didn't want to get attached to his kids and vice versa, I thought that it would be unfair to them if something (and well it eventually did happen) but I was glad that I had not met the kids even though I did really want to.

I guess that knowing kinda that he will be up here and will be around and possibly in my life it bothers me.
I dont feel sorry for him that he's all alone in florida. He's made his bed now he has to deal with the consequences of his choices.
ok my other grandpa my dad's dad... he and i don't always get along but ya know if he needed something or whatever I'd be there in a heartbeat for him. Believe me it's not that i hate old people or anything lol cus that is so not the case. I grew up having ONE grandfather. I knew my other grandfather had turned his back on us. when we were kids and after my mom said she was done dealing with him and his "wife" she told us kids if we wanted to see him my dad would take us whenever we wanted to go. We did try that a few times for halloweens and stuff especially since my grandpa lived like 3 blocks away (yes he lived walking distance from me). Those stopped because it was obvious he really didn't want us there.
I guess what bothers me most is the feeling that he didn't care or even make some effort to stay in contact with us. He would come or drop off a gift if he was invited to something but it was never him initiating any kind of contact. No birthday cards or Christmas cards... nothing. I thought well maybe since my birthday is the day after his just maybe this year i'd get a card from him or something a phone call even. I was his first grandchild.. granted at the time of the drama there were not many of us but I always kinda thought that the first was maybe a little more special or something. Now he's got 22 grandkids and he's got 3 great grandkids now. I am not sure he's seen Evan. I asked my brother if he had brought even over to him at my dad's birthday party and my brother was like "no why" I don't even know if my brother has talked to him really. I guess he kinda feels the way i do in some respect.
My other brother i think has talked to my grandpa. But then I was the one who heard about all the stuff going on with him from a young age. I would sit and listen to the adults talk. I was also present at drama that had happened between my aunt who was babysitting my brother and I at the time and my grandpa. I haven't forgotten that. yes some details may have gotten fuzzy but i remember being afraid of him and being at the neighbors house and him screaming at the door my mom had to come and pick us all up.

I dunno i guess if i heard that he was taking responsibility for some of his actions and choices maybe i would be receptive to having a relationship but from what I've heard he made some crack last year about my mother starting trouble... and honestly she had done nothing at all.
I just can't be a part of his "woe is me I am old my "wife" is dead and now I have no one" pity party
I think if i saw him playing grandpa to my younger cousins i would be sick. cus yes i am still that bitter and yea i know i am bitter no one has to tell me that. cus it bugs the fuck out of me. they don't know anything of the past and he doesn't have to deal with the consequences of his choices looking into their eyes.. ok granted the man is going blind and can't really look into their eyes but ya know what i mean lol

ok I think i am done ranting hopefully some of it made sense to someone besides me.

Gramps had his doc appointment today. I guess they will be treating the prostate cancer with pills. I was talking with a friend the other day who's dad just got the same for his diagnosis sooo I guess that is a good sign. The doc also wants him to go to get his kidney's checked. not sure why really BUT who knows what he told dad or if he explained stuff to dad at all. Of course I am sure there is a reason for that.

my aunt asked me to dog sit thurs - sunday. I agreed of course. but now i remember big brother starts tomorrow. so this means i will barely be able to watch let alone screencap the feeds.
I barely use her computer while i am at her house. times like these i wish i had a laptop.
I need me a sugar daddy to hook me up with a laptop lol

my cousin had her Graduation/birthday party at their lake house yesterday.
that was ... um well an event to put it mildly.
The day started out well we got there at like 3:30 maybe. left later than we wanted but oh well.
When we got there Helen, Chloe, and Emma were on the golfcart and wanted me to go with them. We had literally just pulled up and I wanted to say hello to everyone. So they left and I didn't see them for a long time. I went swimming in the lake. Hung out with my cousin Bryon and his girlfriend Allyson. on this huge raft thing my aunt bought.
Of course we ate. Heard it was going to rain... I was on the phone with a friend and he said that it wouldn't reach us for a couple hours or so so my cousin Caroline and I went back in the water for awhile.
I got out maybe 20 mins before it started to rain. I was sitting on the dock with Bryon, Caroline, and Allyson talking and we felt drops. We ended up going to sit on the boat. Sat out there for a loooong time took some great pics of the sunsetting.
There was some drama won't get into in this post... BUT I am sure I will throw a friends only post in and talk about it.
My Mom's dad was there (no this wasn't cause for the drama) but I didn't talk to him. Honestly I had planned on calling him Mr.M(fill in the rest of his last name) instead of calling him grandpa.
But he didn't say anything to me and I didn't say anything to him. I walked past him quite a few times.

The pic here was taken from the deck. my aunt's dock is the one on the right with the lights on it.

today has been busy, it seems like this week is so busy and yet it's only Tuesday.. ok now it's Wednesday since it's almost 2:30am
Today I watched the kids. Liam was a holy terror. I had to help Chloee with her thank you cards that she needed to send to the people who went to her birthday party Saturday.
Well Liam I don't know if it's cus i had to spend time with Chloee and help her and he's used to getting my full attention since most times it's me and him in the afternoons. It also could have been that it was hot outside and we were cooped up inside the house.
Chloee had just bought a slinky today with a gift card she got from her birthday.... well Liam already ruined it while we were busy doing the cards.
 finally he settled a little bit then we finished the cards and went to watch Chloee's new scooby doo movies.
Hopefully thursday will be a little better.

Tonight mom and I had eye appointments. my prescription hasn't changed much and the doc said that my astigmatism has gotten better. so i am kinda jazzed about that. I mean i have worn glass/contacts since i was in first grade and usually the news is that my eyes have gotten worse.
Granted my eyes have not really changed much in the past 4 years at least... so that's good.
I didn't order contacts yet since the doc said there are new contacts out and she wants to try a pair or two before i commit to anything... which is good since the new contacts are made differently and she wants to see how my eyes react to them.
We also talked about macular degeneration which my maternal grandfather has and my mom's brother was diagnosed with a couple years ago. I am kinda worried about that. She said that my eyes looked great and to make sure i take a multivitamin and some omega 3 vitamins and to always always always wear sunglasses outside. UV from the sun is a contributor to macular degeneration.
Mom's prescription hasn't changed much either and she ordered new glasses. she wanted to make sure she gets them before mom and dad go on vacation so she can get used to them before she has to go back to work. the frames she picked out are really nice.

Then we went to dinner just stopped at portillo's since it's near the tanning salon. we had awhile to wait to go tan so we ended up shopping. i got a couple pairs of capri's shorts and some leggings. i have to say... the only reason i am glad they are bringing back some 80's fashions are the leggings finally the good leggings that i missed when the 80's were over. i LIVED in leggings back in the day. so i got 4 pairs they were on sale 2 for 15 bucks. I couldn't really find any tops i liked though so i only came home with one top. I really need some summer tops though. I hardly ever go shopping in the summer so most of my cute tops are longer sleeved.

then we went to tan.

tomorrow I think we are going to stop over at my brother's to visit with them. Haven't seen them much lately. I saw my SIL and the baby at the wedding shower last week but i didnt visit with them much since i was wandering talking to everyone.
Last i heard my brother and SIL and the baby were going camping this weekend but they aren't now or something so maybe they will go to the graduation party for my cousin up at my aunt's lake house.
I am kinda excited about the party. I am really thinking of swimming i LOVE to swim. which will be good since then i wont have to do makeup or hair since it'll just get ruined by the water anyway.

Ok this is kinda what's going on in my life this week. I am tired now so i think i might actually try to sleep... unless i get distracted by something and stay up lol

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“Hello everybody. I'm leaving a voice post because well you know our internet is out. We had massive storms today. Earlier today everything was fine. We had phone we had internet but it was a about I don't know a little after 7:00 that this huge huge storm blew through. I mean there was like you know wind and lightning and it was really scary for a minute and really it didn't last very long with the blowing and whatever but it knocked out our power for I don't know about 15 secs something like that but enough to knock out well everything out in the house. We had to redo all of the clocks and whatever but when it came back on our internet and the cable and our phone is all maxed out. So cos you know we have time to have triple play and since everything is together ___ cable and whatever usually we don't lose our TV. That's one thing we hardly ever lose. The internet and the cable are different story. Those sometimes do go out but we never lose our TV. Right now we have no TV and let me tell you it's freaking boring. I have to say it's like barely raining right now hopefully time cast will get their ass together and we'll have cable and internet and phone too and I will talk to you all later. Bye.” Auto-Transcribed Voice Post

the auto transcribe kinda sucks lol btw.

Where has the time gone?? I mean this year has gone by so fast.
I know i haven't written a bunch in awhile I blame twitter. BUT i really haven't had much to say.
Nothing much has been going on in my life.
The past two weeks we've had my brother's dogs here since they are on vacation.
I got the invite to my cousin's wedding shower (you all know how much i hate those) The wedding is in August.
 I really need to do laundry, I should be doing it today.. and I may end up doing it in a few. This week will be busy tomorrow and thursday i a going to be watching the kids but i'll have Evan too and Wed I have to go to my brothers to watch Evan since my brother has a side job going on, working with his friend painting.
So I should have new pics to share
oh crap i don't think i ever posted pics of my brother's wedding did i? whoops I need to do that too.
Mom and I are going to start tanning this week. So at least i will have some color.

Ok i am gonna start doing some laundry need some clean clothes. Gotta plan the wardrobe for the week.
have a GREAT week.

Yesterday was my nephew's christening.
I have pics i need to upload I wanted to get some of him in the christening gown since it's a family heirloom.
it's such a pretty dress. it was made out of my grandma and great aunt's communion gowns for my great uncle when he was being christened.
I have to say Evan was really good he really didnt cry even when he was getting goop on his head lol
he fussed a few times but he was pretty good.
the party was fun we had a great time. then after the party we went to my other brother's house to pick up the dogs since he and my sister in law left this morning for 2 weeks.
They are going to arizona and california. this is kinda their honeymoon. even though most of it will be spent with her family. it's still 13 days away from home work and all that stuff.
I am happy they left cus we get the poochies.
I miss these little boogers.
all 3 of them have colds so they are on medicine for that. They only have a few more days on it but to hear them cough makes me sad. I hate seeing the babies sick.
Oh yea yesterday at the party... kevin's dog Hershey she ended up eating brownies and even got cake. all of a sudden she came up from the basement and she had blue frosting on her chin. she also had some strudel. needless to say she got sick. frickin dog lol i love her but she can be a huge pain in the ass. i wish i would have gotten pics of her chin with the frosting on it. cus she came upstairs and was all like nothin happened lol

Hey everyone,
Yesterday was good. Yesterday was my 33rd birthday. By all miracles my one brother called me and wished me a happy birthday. My other brother was invited to have dinner here so he knew it was my birthday lol But he Gayle and Evan came over to dinner. Ev was a tad grumpy and cried. I have a nickname for him.  I call him Mr Serious since he always has a serious stern look on his face and i don't see him smile that often. I need to get him a t shirt made.
My parents went to iowa today they will not be home til monday tomorrow is their 34 anniversary. So i had my anniversary card and mother's day card for them before they left.
I am having myself an OC marathon. I am finishing season 4  then i am gonna watch them all over again. I've been watching the reruns on soapnet and they are just ending season 3 and starting season 4 but on tuesday i went and bought all 4 seasons on dvd since they were on sale for 18.99 for each season at best buy. I really wanted the face boxed set thing BUT... at 150 dollars it was out of my price range on tuesday ( ishould have waited cus i got some extra money for my birthday and could have bought it... honestly maybe i will and give the seasons i just bought to one of my younger cousins who likes the show... who knows)
Honestly this weekend I have no desire to remove myself from my bed. it's been kind of a long week had some drama to deal with. all is well now for the moment at least.
Did i ever tell you guys i had a tumblr account??? I dont know if any of you are on there but if you are i would LOVE to follow you there. i use mine mainly as a photo blog kind of thing i post lots of pictures and sometimes music stuff that i know if i kept posting here everyone would kill me lol
my main tumblr account is http://suburbanprincess.tumblr.com so feel free to check it out i have my sub tumblr accounts linked on the sidebar i have a few of them (i get bored and make new accounts it's a disease, i do it with everything.. emails, IM accounts, i can't freakin help myself)

I still have to upload pics from my brother Mike's wedding on april 25th for ya'll to see. i have been slacking hardcore. I did get some vids on youtube that i had taken so if  you want to see those (they are privately hosted) you need to be on my friendslist my SN over there is Anya1976 so friend me (just let me know you are from LJ and i'll add you, if your LJ and youtube names are different.
talk to you all soon

Mom and i went to pick up her dress. they altered it for her at Von Maur. she tried it on again and it looks fabulous.
she bought these BEAUTIFUL earrings from Macy's they were half off but still really expensive. They will go so nicely with her dress I will have to try to take a pic of them. I doubt a pic will do them justice though. She's doing here hair partly up so her ears will be exposed. Instead of buying a necklace AND earrings she just got these earrings.
Since we were at macy's i hit lush i got aqua marina cleanser and vanillary solid perfume. i like having solid perfumes for casual days i can throw them in my purse and stuff i have a philosophy one pure grace that i should put in my purse but it's in my makeup bag that i don't take with me all the time. then i went to sephora since it was right across from macy's and i got korres primer. I am really trying to go more natural with my makeup and stuff i put on my face. the Korres stuff is silicone free and i have to say not that badly priced. I bought MUFE's all mat and it was 40 dollars for 1.01 fl oz and the Korres stuff is 28.00 for 1.01 fl oz. I want to try it before my brother's wedding just so i can see how I will like it.
I am doing my mom's makeup for the wedding so i need to figure out what i am doing on her. she's got that awesome formal gown I am thinking i want to do a smokey eye on her but I think i want to use a dark purple or something i want something besides using grey's.
we are staying the night at the hotel the night before the wedding so we are getting ready there so i will not have my full arsenal of stuff at my fingertips so i need to plan ahead. I might actually do a makeup tryout on her this week before thursday since we will probably be busy thursday night getting stuff ready for friday's rehersal and all that crap.
i am wearing a black white and red top soo my makeup options are kinda limited i will probably just do a smokey eye in browns. I will probably be bringng all my brushes since i am doin mom's makeup i don't wanna mix colors so i will need all the tools i can bring.
I also need to test to see if we can share the same foundation i think her skintone is close to mine. I do have a powder foundation in a tone a tad lighter than mine though so if worse comes to worse i can use a bit of that.my mom doesn't have oily skin like mine so she's lucky there and her makeup will stay put all day (especially with a primer under)
Mom wears glasses so i really do want her eyes to stand out even behind the frames. i hope she still has that longwearing lippie from kevin's wedding that will come in handy it's a neutral tone so it won't clash with anything.

ok i kinda rambled lol we also hit kohl's i ended up gettng a pair of flip flops and a pair of heels for the wedding. I was looking for a black pair but then these candy apple red shiney things hit my attention and OMG they are awesome.
they did not have an 8-1/2 i had to get a 9 which is a little bit too big but i am gonna buy insoles or whatever to try to make them fit a bit better. I think since i will be on my feet a lot having the larger size will kinda help.
I think i am gonna wear the red shoes friday night too I was gonna wear another pair of shoes but i am also wearing a black white and red top for the rehersal dinner and i think those pumps will look FABULOUS with my dark blue jeans and that top.
 I did take pics of my stuff i got tonight

ok  my brother got our plans for easter dinner changed now we are going out to dinner. I really wanted to stay at home it's nicer to visit in a house than at a restaurant. So shortly i need to get in the shower and start the tedious task of getting ready. (which takes me a couple of hours between hair and makeup and all that jazz)
I was looking forward to trying this cherry and port glaze for the ham we bought, and making homemade lasagna, but noooo now i need to get all dressed up and go out.
Normally I wouldnt mind i guess but Easter we usually do at home. I wanted to spend time with the baby cus as soon as the meal is done everyone goes home it's not like if we had dinner here. Heck i dion't even know if the Kevin and Gayle are gonna bring the baby with them.
So i probably won't have any new pics of the kid to show ya since I hate taking pics in a restaurant lol I always feel like a goob whipping out my camera.
Maybe if i do good makeup you will get a FOTD from me though i am trying new foundation well a sample i have of Make Up For Ever's HD foundation I need to see if i like this foundation so i can buy it before the wedding since i am sure i'll be in pics.
Well Happy Easter or whatever you celebrate :)

Ok.. this will take awhile to type. lol
wanted to see if i could get on lj w/my new dsi. i won`t be able to use it by kelly`s unless she lets me have the access for it.
but this is bad ass

rather impatiently for the arrival of my ordered nintendo DSi.
I ordered it friday around 5pm i got an email it was shipped today I paid for one day shipping cus i want this bad boy. I paid almost 20 dollars for the faster shipping cus i figured what the hell lol
Supposedly i will get my dsi tuesday but i am thinking if it was shipped today and i did pay for the faster shipping i should have this bitch by monday.
Which would make my day. and then i'd have it by the time I watch the kids tuesday which would be awesome.
ok so of course i pre-ordered it and there were only two colors to choose from matte black and a matte bright blue i picked the black I probabably should have picked the blue huh. My ds now is pink cus i wanted to be different and have pink even though i am not a fan of pink.
I didn't really want to wait til they offered more colors cus i want the ds with the wifi access which will be cool
right now i have an extra 1 gig sd card which i can use with the dsi for now til i get a 2 gig just specifically for the dsi.
I will be sad about the not being able to play GBA games on it but i do still have my ds and my GBAsp I thought about giving my ds away but i dont think i really want to do that at this point. Just like i didn't give away my SP since i still have one old game boy game that i still do play.
I dont really want to give it away then want to use it to play my GBA games which i do have quite a few.

ok was playing with the panorama setting again this time i got a better pic. this is the front of my house.
this cold weather sucks but granted we dodged a pretty nasty storm. out west and up north are kinda getting hammered with snow and we just got a dusting.
It's freakin cold out but it's supposed to warm up this week which will be good.

We had the doggies all weekend. I picked them up friday night and they are on their way back home now. I didn't get any pics cus i was too busy hanging out with them to go get my camera. I love those poochies.

lots have changed since i started here on LJ.
I have made some really awesome friends and i love all of you.
I just wanted to say thank you for being my friends on LJ and off cus I do think of you as real friends not just random people on the internet.
I know I may not say it often but you guys are wonderful. Thank you for being my friends.

i guess they are going to monitor these spots which the doc thinks are nothing
dad will need a colonoscopy every year to make sure nothing comes back.

maybe this is the scare dad needed to change his bad habits. and next time he has a colonoscopy he will actually finish the bottle of laxative so the docs can actually see if there is anything there.

wore the jeans i bought. well since they are "stretch" i guess i should have bought a size smaller. fucking stretch jeans wtf why oh why do all jeans have to be the stupid fucking stretch. can we go back to when jeans were actually fucking jeans???? i hate buying my size and they stretch the hell out and i should have bought the smaller size but when i try them on at the store the size MY size fits i don't try on the smaller size that probably won't fit in the 5 mins that i am trying on the jeans.

but i am not
chinchillas would not be quiet to let me sleep (their cages are in my room)
yep they both look to be going to sleep now WTF they have no plans today they don't need to be getting ready for a stupid wedding shower in about an hour.
I am pissed all i know is i will need to mainline some sort of caffeine. but the problem with that is i don't really like coffee. I will need some coffee sort of drink to make me stay awake well i guess this extra time to kinda figure out what makeup to use. since my shirt is brightly colored i guess i will do a neutral eye but i want to use pink lip and cheek colors in honor of what appears to be a lovely spring day.
I may be using my MAC well dressed blush and maybe i will use my MAC pearl blossom beauty powder I think 've maybe used it once. I want to use my yogamode beauty powder too but i may just use the pinky one i need to brighten up my face especially if i have had no sleep.
makeup do not fail me now. I only have one concealer too and i generally don't use it. hopefully it's good enough to cover what i need to be covered.
i need to look awake
I wouldnt count on a FOTD especially with no sleep

Watched the kids. Chloee was home from school again and Matt (my brother's friend) was over at kelly's painting their bedrooms.
Kelly and Bill switched rooms now that the other two kids are getting their own rooms. Well the doorknob for that room was not good.
Matt had locked himself in that room so the kids couldnt come in while he was painting. WELL... he couldn't get out.
the doorknob pretty much broke so we spent like 20 mins trying to get him out with just the knob he ended up having to take the hinges off the door and take the whole door off.
so that made the day more fun
Chloee slept most of the time i was there since she was sick and I spent most of the time trying to keep Liam from getting in Matt's way cus believe me he wanted to help matt and watch matt the whole time.
Then i went over to my brother's house. We had tried to print these gift tag things for the party favors here but they weren't turning out.... my mom thought well maybe it's our printer. I went to my brother's after kelly's house and we couldn't get it to work there either.
The label on these tags say "easy as 1,2,3. Um yea right these things are hard as hell to print.
So at least i got to see my little nephew he wasnt in a great mood when i was there so i didn't take new pics. He's getting so big. His christening is May 17th. By the time i was leaving he had eaten again cus the first time he didn't eat much and was crabby cus he was hungry he was sleeping.
I am so tired today i was busy running around after Liam pretty much all afternoon.

mom and i went shopping she got a dress for sunday's shower i just got a top to wear with my black dress pants(it looks better on than in this pic lol) but now i need to figure out what makeup to do


this is another shirt i got
looove it

and in another color


I got a pair of jeans so far they are awesome but since all denim seems to be this stretch shit the jury is out on them til after i wear them. I just wish i could afford a couple more pairs cus i tried them on and they are awesome well so far lol i'll have to see if they totally stretch out while being worn. the other thing with jeans is i find a pair i like and the next time i go buy jeans the kind i liked are now nowhere to be found so i have to start all over again.
I'd wear them tomorrow but they stink so i need to wash them first.

the doc called. he didn't tell me this afternoon for some reason but he called my brothers. I heard from my mom.
He has 3 small spots on his liver. they the will treat with chemo and they said that should take care of them.
but this stil makes me nervous. I guess  he's gonna see if the doc calls him to see this one specialist or something but if they don't call by friday he's calling to make the appointment. I just hope that this isn't the beginning of something bad. That once they do the chemo he'll be fine. So keep good thoughts his way.

Dad didn't call (from what we know) to get his results from the CT scan. so i have no update for that yet... hopefully tomorrow.

it's raining again we just had water in our basement yet again over the weekend from getting a ton of rain (just over 2 inches)
we are supposed to be getting a ton of rain tomorrow afternoon HOPEFULLY the worst of it goes south, I am really sick of sucking water off the floor.

Mom and i went back to hobby lobby to get some more stuff for the bridal shower. we are almost done with all this crap the shower is sunday.
we got ribbon to tie around the vases we bought for the flowers and ribbon to tie up the party favors. We have to print out the tag things we have for this thing mom bought a heart shaped hole punch so we could have fancy holes for the stupid ribbon.(not like anyone will notice)
I have to say hobby lobby has a ton of crap for scrapbooking maybe i should try that out huh or i could do what i had been doing and do it with digital scrapbook pages and maybe one day i'll get them printed out.
Hopefully i'll have enough pics of stuff to do something like that. I do take lots of pics of my cousins and stuff when we han gout so who knows.
Ok i should try going to sleep since it's 1am and i have to watch the kids tomorrow but i am just not feeling that tired yet.

my brother stopped over here earlier he had Kelly's crib and changing table with him Liam is getting a big boy bed and his own room soon and kelly wanted to get the crib and stuff out of her house and i know my mom wanted to get a crib and changing table in case Evan ever sleeps over here or anything. Even if they come over to visit i guess it's nice to have the changing table and the bed just in case they are here and he's crabby for sleep or something. can at least put him down for a nap without worrying about him rolling off a bed and what not.
NOW we just need to figure out where to put it lol that spare room upstairs is getting kinda full lol. I should take a picture it's a disaster in there.
I thought my mom just wanted one of those small porable cribs or something but now we have this full blown thing. I mean i guess if i ever get pregnant and we still have it it'll be nice.. but my getting pregnant is kind of a longshot at this moment in time.

ok well dad went for this CT scan Wed. I was supposed to go with him but he left without me for some reason.
Supposedly he had changed his mind about having someone go with him. When my mom told him when she was home for lunch a little before that I was going to go with him.
He is supposed to call for his results on monday.
My mom says that he better call when she's home so she can hear what the doctor says.
She's also going to ask the doctor if they had told my dad what they found when he was still in the hospital after his surgery or just recently like he claims. Sorry but my bet is on they told him what they found back when they did the surgery in october. They generally don't NOT tell you when they find cancer and all of a sudden spring it on ya like "oh yea btw didn't we tell ya, sorry our bad" yea that doesn't happen in a hospital.
If she finds out my dad is telling the truth about not finding out til just recently then she will let the doc have it well if she find out that my dad is lying she's probably gonna kill him.
So if you see a woman on the news for killing her husband  its probably my mom.

In other news we got the favors for the bridal shower. mom wanted to do something a tad different and she got these little mini teacup tealight candle holders they are very pretty. i took a couple pics but i didn't upload them so i will have to add the pics to this post when i do that.
I just can't wait til this shower is over I am sick of all the shit that needs to be done for one. Remind me to not have a "shower" if i ever get married. I'd want something very informal just hanging out  maybe go bowling or something sing karaoke or something  hell of a lot better than hoity toity bullshit that's for sure.

( tealight holder pics )

Dad has a CT scan tomorrow. I am going with just in case he can't drive home. Man do I really hate hospitals especially where he is concerned.
I don't WANT to go tomorrow i had planned just staying in jammies all day but that isn't happenin now.
Next week i guess he should have the results from the scan Mom is going to the doc with him then.

ok i HAD to buy the EL sun goddess i had my small atomizer of the azuree soleil in my purse and i sniffed them both at the store and the sun goddess is a tad different (but not that much) from what i could tell
I have a HUGE bottle (7.9oz) of AS and am likely to never run out since i don't use it ALL the time lol but i love it so i had to get SG ok maybe i am stupid lol but i bought it at macy's so i could always return it lol



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Spent the last 5 hrs sucking up water from the basement floor. had 2 wet/dry vacs going at least the one i wasn't using actually sucked up 8 gallons of water, while i had to dump mine twice as much. my back be hurtin'

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I know I haven't really written anything in awhile but nothing is really going on.
Been watching the kids. I've just been kinda bored with everything lately. I go thru these phases. I am bored with the internet I am bored with phone calls i am just bored. I think it's probably got something to do with it being winter and that i am SOOO sick of winter.

I have been fairly active on twitter and friendfeed  But since those are pretty much micro blogging it's easier. Since I haven't had much to say lately. (and for those I IM with you know i have been way boring lately) I just really have not had the attention span to do anything but microblog.. sad Eh?

I have to start tanning soon my brother's wedding is in april and i would like to have some color and I know that tanning might actually help my mood. I think that is another thing for my mood being the way it has been. My one brother just had a baby the other is getting married and YET i am still single ... pretty darn single. OK it maybe shouldn't bother me but it kinda does i mean i am getting older and it sucks (picture marissa tomei in my cousin vinny where she's screaming about her biological clock ticking) Yea that's me.
Times like this i wonder am i just unloveable?? Do i suck that much that no one wants to be around me willingly???
ok this is getting depressing so I will cut this short. I dont wanna bring EVERYONE down.
I hope you are all having a great weekend and i hope to update again soon and hopefully have something mroe cheerful to say.

Evan's doc appointment went well the doc was very pleased good color he's gained weight everything is gong well.

my sister in law and I had a moment before the appointment that was a total three stooges moment.

Ok Evan has a newfangled car seat/carrier one of those snap in and go kind of things, easy right?? ok not so much it was the blonde leading the blonde.

So we make it to the appointment i park the boat of an SUV that is her car an infinity something or other huge bus thing.
Gayle walks around she can't really carry anything heavier than evan at the moment so i was going to take him out of the car in his carrier/carseat dealie.
I ask gayle how to work it she says well i don't know i didn't do his seat the last time we went to the doctor my sister did but you have to press the yellow button.
Ok so i see a yellow button on the side near the door so i press it yank the handle and nothing ... Kid is still locked into the base in the car.
Gayle was like maybe you didnt press it hard enough ok so i press it again and yank handle.. nope kid still locked in.
Gayle starts pressing and yanking then she says well there is a button on the other side of the base maybe we need to press both at the same time.. ok... so i go into the car from the other side  she presses i press yank handle ... nope kid still in the base.
so we kinda try it a few more times.
then all of a sudden i see big yellow button on the back of his seat like behind where his head is at the front of this contraption.
i say OMG DUH press the button and he's free.
so i climb out of the side i was on i lift him out and carry him and ask gayle well didnt you even TRY this thing after it was installed? read directions?? she was like uum no.
 Then she said well we got here early now we are late for the appointment. i said uh huh yep pretty much.
 I have to say it was  a very interesting morning lol
AT least Evan slept thru this whole thing. Yanking on the  carrier and all that.

I just wanted to share that little titdbit of my day lol cus it was kinda funny... not so much at the time but after he was out and we knew how to get him out it was pretty damn funny.

next post for those whoa are on my friends list I have a few more pics of the baby.

Beeswax Moisturizing Day Creme

An everyday moisturizer that's anything but ordinary.

How it Works

This lightweight version of our Beeswax Moisturizing Night Creme is a natural moisturizer that combines beeswax with vitamins and botanical oils. The soothing formula is suitable for all skin types.

How to Use It

Smooth a small amount over clean, toned skin as needed, using gentle, upward strokes.

Ingredients: water, helianthus annuus (sunflower) seed oil, stearic acid, glycerin, cocos nucifera (coconut) oil, beeswax, tocopheryl acetate, citrus aurantium dulcis (orange) peel wax, aloe barbadensis leaf juice, rosmarinus officinalis (rosemary) extract, sodium borate, xanthan gum, sucrose stearate, glucose, glucose oxidase, lactoperoxidase, beta-carotene, fragrance

My Review:
OK I LOOOOVE this stuff. I think it's a tad thick to be called a day cream so i use it at night mainly(or when i am not putting makeup on) i'd love to try the night cream too though.I have been trying to get into using more natural products since they seem to calm my excema down.
My face routine has been either origins get down or check and balance or lately lush's fresh farmacy (but i hate FF trying to use it up) Lush's tea tree water toner and then i slap on some of this moisturizer. It's been a week of using this moisturizer and my itchy face and flakes are gone away. when i wake up in the morning my face feels SOOO soft,

I have oily skin but with my excema i really do need something to help combat flare ups. so sometimes i need to take one for the team and use stuff that will make me a bit more oily BUT if i am not going anywhere or not putting makeup on I can deal. I would rather have my face oily than red from an excema flare up or have flakes on an otherwise perfectly made up face.

I love that this stuff has no parabens too bad the lush stuff does *sigh* but i think so does my origins stuff but i am trying to go more natural in my facial routine. I only use small amounts of this moisturizer since a little goes a long way. I've been using a plastic knife to spoon a bit out since right now i have no cosmetic spatulas to take product out without sticking my fingers in it.

The cream itself is very soft and creamy i love how it feels not too big of a fan of how it smells its got a rose scent but lately since i've been using it more i've smelled a bit more honeyness to it thru the rose.  Honestly with how it's been working I can overlook the scent.

I bought this on a whim last week at the hospital. Mom and I had gone down to the gift shop for a teddy bear for the baby and i saw the burt's bees stuff so snapped this stuff up and i needed to buy it. I paid $14.99 which normally would be a tad expensive for a 2oz jar for more of a drugstore product but it is burt's bees and i will pay more for stuff that works for me. I haven't seen this at my local walgreens but from now on i will be looking for it.

haul for friday Feb 6,2009 minus my lush tea tree water toner

ok i have made a few folders for pics and maybe i will make one on flickr too but i do not put any pics of kids public so if you are not on these lists to see stuff on facebook , here on LJ, youtube, flickr let me know user names and i will make sure you are added to those lists to see his pics.
I know i talk to some of you often and I want you to be able to share this part of my life as well so if we know each other very well and i forgot you let me know and u'll be added.
my SN on youtube is anya1976
flickr it's also Anya1976

my brother came out from the delivery room he was congratulated by my SIL's friends then he came over by me gave me a hug started to cry and said it was so awesome gayle did so well
so of course i started to cry too.

ok got the call this morning that my brother and sister in law were on their way to the hospital. Her contractions were 5 mins apart.
Well recent developments she's not dilated soo they sent her home where she will be more comfortable.
So of course right now nothing is going on I got all insanely excited this morning when  i initially heard the news. Now it's just a waiting game.
I am hoping she ends up having the baby today when i can go  to the hospital right away. Tomorrow I have to watch Kelly's kids  So i wont be able to get away as easy.
So think good thoughts on her having the baby today

and when she does have the baby i'll be taking LOTS of pics so those on my friends list will be able to see them

ok late to the party as usual but i just started using it.
right now i have quite a few blogs in there.
It's mainly makeup and fat acceptance blogs  I have found some reaaaaaaaaaally wonderful FA blogs. I wish i would have found them before. I have some different entries shared. I wonder if there is some widget that i can share them here on my blog so if anyone gets bored ya'll can wander over and see what i've found interesting enough to share. (if you are on my friendfeed well then you can see it anyway since they get shared over there automatically)
I've been a twitter addict lately too. Ok so i'm a nerd but ya'll knew this already.
I've also been sick this week. Liam got me sick he and chloee were sick last week i thought that since i wasn't sick last weekend i was in the clear.
I started feeling funny in my throat on monday. and it turned into a full blown cold.
sore throat stuffy nose sneezing a little and a little bit of coughing. I am still dealing with the massive sniffles and almost constant nose blowing, so i have a raw red nose lookin' a bit like rudolph. Colds are fun let me tell ya i am enjoying not being able to sleep cus i can't freaking breathe waking up with a throat so sore i can barely talk let alone swallow since i've had my mouth hanging open all night long since i cannot for the life of me breathe thru my nose.
OK i am sure you didn't tune in to read the details of this cold but you are getting them anyway.
I havent felt very bloggy and well now i do so you are getting every detail lol.
Yesterday was interesting i am feeling a little bit better in the respect that i am not dealing with as many body aches but the head cold is still in full force.
Liam took his nap early yesterday which meant not the easy day i was expecting and was hoping for since i feel crappy.
I had to keep him entertained. we read books and played some games he loves his lucky ducks game so we played that a bit.
I won't get into other messy details of the afternoon lol but i ended up needing to put him in the tub when chloee got home she saw him in the tub and begged me to let her take a bath too and honestly i figured this was the easiest way to entertain both of them so i let her hop in with her brother. they played and honestly being sick it kept them in one spot and they were happy so i was happy. I had just taken liam out and got him dressed when their daddy came home.
when i finally got to leave the angels were singing lol yesterday wore me out but of course when i got home i just got online for a chat with my cyber sweetie and didn't get to bed til very late.
I blame it all on twitter and friendfeed though.

ok i am going to be totally taking it easy today trying to get rid of this cold. i am going to suck down a jug of orange juice pop sinus meds like they are candy in the hopes to be able to breathe.
I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend
hope to talk to you soon and if you are on twitter or friendfeed my page links are off to the left on my journal so add me.

I actually finished a jar of moisturizer. I haven't finished anything in years (well besides my face washes)
I just used the last of my jar of Clinique moisture surge extra thirsty skin relief  I generally use a bit under my regular moisturizer since that is what it's made for it's  a gel based moisturizer that works best with another. I got another jar here my mom had gotten it in a gift at christmas but she doesn't use it so she gave it to me. Now i just have to start using my burt's bees radiance day creme more often I keep meaning to but i've been using my CO Bigelow deluxe moisturizer instead (i dig the chamomile scent). I hate using jars though that you have to stick your fingers in maybe i can scoop out the burts bees stuff and put it in a squeeze tube or something. I only try to use it with clean fingers from JUST washing my face.
but i am kinda excited abou finishing the clinique stuff.

ok... well here on my way over by Kelly's i thought today would be cake. Chloee would be in school and i'd just have liam until chloee came home at 10 after 3... well i pull up in front of Kelly's and kelly is pulling out of the driveway she opens her window to tell me Liam is sick and shes on her way to pick up Chloee from school she's sick too and being sent home.
Liam was in his bed but he wasn't asleep he was coughin so much he couldn't have fallen asleep so he called out for someone to get him. I picked him up and we went to sit on the couch. Poor kid had a fever.
Kelly and Chloee come back and Chloee had a fever of 102.
my easy day was just shot to hell.
I will probably get sick since i was wiping noses and being coughed on all day. Right now i am going to be ODing on airborne and drinking lots of orange juice. I might head to walgreens to get me some tissues with lotion just in case from what i saw from those two i might need them.
I was telling Kelly before she went to work that i had planned to take liam for a walk since it was nice out she said take them anyway it would be good for him to be out in the sunshine and the fresh air.
So i ate my lunch i had stopped and got a salad from mcdonalds on the way there and liam was eating leftover mac & cheese kelly said he had eaten all most all of it earlier and there was only a little bit left in a bowl which he ate most of when i ate my lunch.
we went for a walk down the block afterwards, we didn't go that far since liam was getting tired of walking. But we did get to goof around outside those kids were ready for a blizzard with the way i had them bundled up.
we went back to the house and vegged out after that i thought liam might actually take his nap but he just wanted to lay on the couch and have me rub his back. Chloee was playing with my nintendo DS and my gameboy advance sp i brought them both so there would be no fighting.
Then i was kinda laying on the one leather chair and liam had come over to lay with me which was probably the best thing that happened to me today. he brought his blankie and he wanted to lay with me instead of laying where he was on the couch with his sister.
we laid for a little bit and i had to get something for chloee so i had to get up. I started cleaning up and putting stuff away and liam had gone to get a book for me to read him. i read him a couple stories and then their dad came home so i got to leave.
over all today was a good day even though i may have a fever and be coughin my head off in a day or two lol

President Obama was sworn in and i of course was witness.
This just filled me with such a sense of hope and possibility that I've been in a fabulous mood all day.
I've been watching the hoopla most of the day I missed the beginning of the parade but i have watched as much as i could all day.
I am excited for what the future holds.