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“My Mum died suddenly on September 4th, 2006

After she died, I realized how much she’d been shielding from my father’s mental state.

He doesn’t have alzheimers, but he has no short - term memory, and is often lost.

I took him to the funeral, but when we got home, he kept asking me every 15 minutes where my mother was. I had to explain over and over again, that she had died.

This was shocking news to him.

Why had no one told him?
Why hadn’t I taken him to the funeral?
Why hadn’t he visted her in the hospital?

He had no memory of these events.

After awhile, I realized I couldn’t keep telling him that his wife had died. He didn’t remember, and it was killing both of us, to constantly re-live her death.

I decided to tell him she’d gone to Paris, to take care of her brother, who was sick.

And that’s where she is now.

This is a journal.

An ongoing record of my father, and of our relationship.

For whatever days we have left together.




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Jun. 28th, 2010 06:01 am (UTC)
This is amazing. Really, really amazing. Not sure why, but I was sucked in right away. I cried at the end. Now I see why you said you were sad on FB (unless there's another reason, but this is reason enough for me) Thanks for sharing, I may steal it and repost.
Jun. 28th, 2010 06:51 am (UTC)
there was another reason for being sad on FB, but this whole weekend has been a bit like that and yea this did make me cry too that's for sure. Stuff like this reminds me of my aunt who has dementia and she's in her 50's she's gotten bad and doesn't remember much of anything now.
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